Why Can't I Handle This

I don t really know where to start. I guess I just need to put it in writing. In September of 2006 my mom was on vacation and out of know where she turned jaundice. She felt fine no signs or symptoms. My step father took her to the dr and after running some tests he said you need to get back home and go see an oncologist. When they got home they went to a dr and after numerous tests they said it was cancer. After hearing this my mom told me and my brother. It was the hardest thing... Why Can t I Handle This
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