Ptsd Due To Narcissistic Abuse

Ptsd Due To Narcissistic Abuse
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/ptsd-due-to-narcissistic-abuse.49819/

I Don't Know What To Do Or Even Think

I ve been with my boyfriend since May, there was alot of dishonesty which I ve managed to overcome, and we ve grown very close, he s wonderfully kind, attentive, understanding, things would be perfect if not for one issue. Right before we even started I made it very clear that I cannot be around someone that uses porn, it s tied into my ptsd and hurts me unimaginably. The dishonesty at the beginning was just that, but after he saw my reaction he said it wasn t necessary and he just needed... I Don t Know What To Do Or Even Think
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-dont-know-what-to-do-or-even-think.49820/

Why ?

So -fifteen minutes ago i had this positive thought that i could go to a small town where i feel safe. .i don t feel safe in the city ...i was going to buy a small gift for one of my few friends. I even got out of bed and dressed..then i got back in bed to keep warm until husband was ready. Then i got the jiggly feet thing and pounding heart and i knew i couldnt go ..why ? Why does my brain switch to this ? Is it because i had my 1st " i want to punch and shout at everyone who walks behind me... Why ?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/why.49818/

Sexually Abused Boys/men?

I m curious how common sexual abuse towards boys/men in western culture. Most of the time we hear of women being raped or abused even from very young ages. We hear of same-sex abuse of girls and boys, but is it uncommon to hear of boys being abused sexually by a female? I see articles in the paper and in the news about female teachers having sex with young boys in their schools. So I know this happens. I assume it goes under-reported? The closest I ever came to female>male sexual... Sexually Abused Boys/men?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/sexually-abused-boys-men.44987/

Living With Someone Who Is Undiagnosed Bipolar And Intimate Rape

My husband of 12 years is a very smart intelligent Dr. (a psychologist) He is very successful, smart, ambitious and an absolute perfectionist. He is an amazing father to our 2 beautiful daughters. From the outside we have a beautiful perfect family. I have the perfect, loving and involved family man. We go to church, I am involved at the school. We do a lot together as a family. We do all the things that would make society label us as normal. What people don t see if the daily struggle in our... Living With Someone Who Is Undiagnosed Bipolar And Intimate Rape
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/living-with-someone-who-is-undiagnosed-bipolar-and-intimate-rape.49816/

Ptsd Due To Narcissistic Abuse

Hi all, Does anyone here have PTSD due to childhood narcissistic abuse? I really feel ashamed of having PTSD just because of narcissistic abuse(mostly emotional, some physical). Is it common? I searched the forum for some cases, but didn t find anybody like me. I am trying to find someone like me for not feeling alone, I guess. Thank you
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/ptsd-due-to-narcissistic-abuse.49817/

Poems By Us & Ones By Others To Share

Ok, Folks. I think a poetry thread would be great, besides it ll be great reading for me, since I m not much of a poet. So, those of you who are awesome at writing feelings down in rhythm, write away! Cookie, could you place your poem here?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/poems-by-us-ones-by-others-to-share.483/

An Old Friend

Hi ..i have been getting to know you a bit before plucking up courage to seek support .i have recently been diagnosed with PTSD after a 2 yr struggle with worsening symptoms. I am in T but early days & still v scared and finding it distressing . I can t ever see a way of connecting to my pre trauma self as i am so lost . My main struggles are constant intrusive memories , fear of sleep , flashbacks, guilt, anger, the street and its people , hate . All due i m sure to the unresolved grief from... An Old Friend
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/an-old-friend.49814/

Words Accompanying Avatar?

Please know that i am slow to figure out computer and website instructions. 1. I ve gone to the page to change my name, and successfully changed my name. 2. Then, I ve gone to my picture Avatar. Where does one write words/slogans, etc, that show next to their picture avatar? Thanks!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/words-accompanying-avatar.49815/

How Do You Tell A Spouse?

I m kind of stuck and not really sure how/when the time is to do this. When do you know the time is right to tell your spouse you were raped? The twisted backward part is we ve been married almost 15 years already. :-( It s haunting me in a way so unimaginable. It happened before we were married by a random unknown person. I never dealt with it and just thought if I pretended it didn t happen, I could go about my life as if it didn t. I was so wrong. :-( Part of my therapy is... How Do You Tell A Spouse?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/how-do-you-tell-a-spouse.49812/

Ending The Relationship? And A Bit Of A Life Update

So I ve been a bit MIA lately because my life has been steadily improving although I definitely have my off days. I recently noticed I ve been steadily weaving my way through the steps of grief...if there s a word to describe this past year then it would be, hectic. I m just hoping that I can get my somewhat on track again, but I just keep reminding myself that I need to take my time. There isn t anything wrong with me physically, but it still feels like I ve been stuck in a mental wheelchair.... Ending The Relationship? And A Bit Of A Life Update
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/ending-the-relationship-and-a-bit-of-a-life-update.49813/

Complex Post-traumatic Stress Disorder (c-ptsd) Known As Developmental Trauma Disorder

HI, My name is Judy King and I am a sufferer of Complex post-traumatic stress disorder (C-PTSD) also known as developmental trauma disorder.... I have had many traumas threw out my life and have caused me to now need medical care just to try and function normally. I was not diagnosed until I was older and sought help for my constant feelings of suicide which began shortly after a brutal murder of my children s father by the Tucson police back in 2001. After being diagnosed it made lots of... Complex Post-traumatic Stress Disorder (c-ptsd) Known As Developmental Trauma Disorder
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/complex-post-traumatic-stress-disorder-c-ptsd-known-as-developmental-trauma-disorder.49811/

A Tornado Of Emotion

All over the place. A fury of an emotional mess. Struggling Struggling Struggling Angry. sad. Anxious. Afraid. Put in my stomach. Nausea. Neck is super tight. Meds are not working as they did before. I don t understand. Had been on Paxil for two years at 40 mg a day. Doctor stopped the Paxil and put me on Pristiq... Not a good med. Doc put me back on Paxil. It has been about 10 weeks. So the Pristiq is out of my system. The Paxil is back in. Before the change the Paxil worked... A Tornado Of Emotion
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/a-tornado-of-emotion.49807/

Are Bithdates Kept Private Unless Boxes Are Clicked-that Indicate Displaying Them?

Hello, My question is in the thread title. Thank you.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/are-bithdates-kept-private-unless-boxes-are-clicked-that-indicate-displaying-them.49808/

Diagnosed With Borderline Personality Disorder And Worried About Possible Sexual Abuse?

From age 13 (now 18) I ve been seeing a psychiatrist for mental health problems. I got diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder last year. My dad drank heavily and was verbally/physically abusive, till he left at 8. The docs know my past. Sorry if this is long, I desperately need ADVICE. I started getting the feeling something else happened, at age 15. It s like I suddenly was aware that there was a memory at the back of my mind, I can t figure out what. It literally came out of nowhere... Diagnosed With Borderline Personality Disorder And Worried About Possible Sexual Abuse?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/diagnosed-with-borderline-personality-disorder-and-worried-about-possible-sexual-abuse.47903/

Concerned About Flat Emotional Reaction Re: Female-to-boy Abuse

After reading through this thread, something occurred to me, which I thought interesting in the context on my own experience. I don t know exactly what happened to me, in the past, but, after two years of processing, I strongly suspect some kind of sexual abuse. Not sure if it included physical abuse, or was just emotional, but I believe there was some of the former and lots of the latter. Recently, I ve begun to... Concerned About Flat Emotional Reaction Re: Female-to-boy Abuse
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/concerned-about-flat-emotional-reaction-re-female-to-boy-abuse.49810/

Share A Photo

I m sure this has done before, though I couldn t find an existing thread for it in a search. The idea here is to post a photo. It can be one you took, one you like (please let us know the source in that case), one of yourself, your favorite pet, your house (no addresses), whatever you like--within forum guidelines, of course. I ll kick this off with a photo of myself. It s not the best, but it s me, for better or worse. View attachment 36685
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/share-a-photo.49809/

Changing Avatar For The New Year, Or Just Anyway?

Curious to see some of the changes on the avatars. Phase or mood, or…..? Different of course from eye to eye with a friend. Here harder to gauge. The avatar is an unspoken message, or mask. New year, path uncertain.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/changing-avatar-for-the-new-year-or-just-anyway.49806/

Every Single Bad Thing About Me Makes Me Want To Puke And I Feel Like I Will Fail In Life.

Title says a part. I get seriously anxious over any weight gain, I feel really bad about it and.hate myself, it s awful because of how much anxiety magnifies it . I didn t have A+ in musicians school at the half of year, instead I ended up with an A as main grade, and here I am, filled with fears of failing in musicians school, not being able to go to musicians high school or academy, torn by fears, and as expected, selfharming again Just bleeding ... I get afraid of what will I... Every Single Bad Thing About Me Makes Me Want To Puke And I Feel Like I Will Fail In Life.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/every-single-bad-thing-about-me-makes-me-want-to-puke-and-i-feel-like-i-will-fail-in-life.49805/

Don't Know How He Does It

Just ranting. I think I should probably start a journal, but wanted to get this out of my head. My husband and I are in the process of trying to put our life back together...attempted to move, didn t work, but trying again as we both have decided it s for the best. Anyways, on top of all the stress from him being ill with a reaction to a medication, the move/attempting to move again, the holidays, and currently living with his mother...I really didn t think things could get worse. But they... Don t Know How He Does It
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/dont-know-how-he-does-it.49804/

The Interview Movie: Free

http://www.pubfilm.com/2014/12/the-interview-2014-full-movie-online-hd.html?m=1
https://www.mycombatptsd.com/threads/the-interview-movie-free.3673/

Good Food

Life is too short for bad food. I m trying to eat better. Not healthier, just at all, right now. Even in good runs, though, I eat whatever the hell I want and then just work it off. Had frenchfries dipped in chocolate shake earlier this week for the first time in years. Holy wow, I d forgotten about that one. Crunchy, hot, creamy, cold, salty, sweet. Ive forgotten a lot this run. 2 concussions last year didn t help. Every time I bang my head more falls out of it! Anyhow, I m hoping all... Good Food
https://www.mycombatptsd.com/threads/good-food.3393/

How To Delete Account

At one point I was able to consistently access this feature by hovering my mouse over the user icon in the top right-hand corner (in Safari), but it appears I am no longer able to find the delete account option. My premium membership recently expired thus I am wondering if deleting one s account is presently a premium-account only feature? If not, can someone please direct me to the correct place/page to do so? Thanks in advance, Ninja
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/how-to-delete-account.48543/

Self Medicating? Need Insight.

He initiated conversation yesterday and we finally met up. It was so wonderful to catch up, I was so thankful. I could tell he had missed me. Part of me feels he was worried I was going to reject seeing him because he s been fairly MIA, so was relieved, greeted me with a warm hug when I arrived. He s been out of the state visiting his folks. Prior to this, he s been in a hole for about 3 weeks (total). Anyway, when I arrived he had drank an entire bottle of wine to himself already. He wasn t... Self Medicating? Need Insight.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/self-medicating-need-insight.49803/

What Are You Grateful For Today?

As a way to cope, I made a list of things I am grateful for today. It s something that I have found to be useful in the past. It has a stabilizing effect for me. It helps me keep a broader, more accurate, perspective. It doesn t always make me feel better. However, it usually does make coping a little easier. What am I grateful for today? I woke up this morning. I awoke from a restless night s sleep in my own bed. I didn t wake up with a hangover. I am grateful to start my day with... What Are You Grateful For Today?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/what-are-you-grateful-for-today.4399/

No Contact Support Thread

I m struggling with having gone "No Contact" aka NC with my mother. I know it is what s best, but that doesn t make it easy by any stretch of the imagination. I know that others have gone NC as well, so I thought it would be good for us to have a place to support one another where we can post if we need to talk about our struggles. So here s what I m currently dealing with.... My lifelong very atheist mother forcing her way into my safe place church. Yes, the most UN-safe person trying... No Contact Support Thread
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/no-contact-support-thread.49802/

Snow In The Uk

Just wondered how the UK dwellers are doing? In South London it hasn t been too bad, although the trains have been disrupted because of conditions farther out. I m really feeling the cold, though. Hope everyone is warm and safe.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/snow-in-the-uk.30701/

Want To Curl Up In Bed And Cry

Feel completely alone, depressed and all I want to do is get into bed and cry. People don t understand me when I tell them just how sad I m feeling. It makes me feel so much worse as it makes me feel like I m just exaggerating how I m feeling. I ve tried discussing this with my doctor with no help at all. I try with my T but I just can t get the words out right. I need help. I ve been feeling this low for a long time and nothing seems to be helping. I need help but don t know where to turn.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/want-to-curl-up-in-bed-and-cry.49801/

Depressed Or Not?

I think I m depressed but I m pretty sure that if your depressed you are not meant to have an appetite. This is my problem as I eat till I feel uncomfortable yet I rarely shower, don t brush my teeth or get ready in general. I have 2 kids, 6 and 3. Everything I do is for them. I feel I have lost my spark, I m not me anymore. I feel I m in a hole and the hole is getting deeper and I can t see a way out. I have the usual symptoms where I m tearful all the time, un sociable, thoughts of ways... Depressed Or Not?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/depressed-or-not.49800/

Lingering Nightmares & Hallucinations...?

Hiya, I ve been having a terrible time with nightmares lately and I was wondering if anyone has gone through a similar experience like the ones I ve been going through? I ve been having PTSD nightmares on and off for the past 7 years after I survived some abuse and trauma- I ve only been treating this trauma and my PTSD for a bit over a year. It isn t unusual for me to have 1-2 weeks a month when I have a PTSD nightmare, but they re usually very mild dreams thanks to some type of... Lingering Nightmares & Hallucinations...?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/lingering-nightmares-hallucinations.49799/

Having A Positive Attitude

Having A Positive Attitude for A Tuesday... Late Monday morning, the grizzled fighter pilot finally regained consciousness… He found himself in agonizing pain in the base hospital’s ICU, with tubes up every fundamental orifice, wires monitoring every function and a gorgeous nurse hovering over him. He remembered he d been in a, no shit, serious flying accident Saturday. The nurse gave the fighter pilot a serious, deep look straight into the eyes, and he heard her slowly say,... Having A Positive Attitude
https://www.mycombatptsd.com/threads/having-a-positive-attitude.3672/

Relocating

Hello all, I m writing again in the hopes of getting some advice. This time, it s about relocating. I ve struggled with PTSD for about 10 years but only recently stopped abusing alcohol to deal with it, so I am contemplating things a bit more carefully than I used to. Anyway, I m currently working as a journalist overseas, a job which is rewarding in the sense that I get to learn a great deal and, to some extent, be a part of history. But at the same time, I have no real friends here, no... Relocating
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/relocating.49796/

Feeling Small

I have very few friends that I can experience life with. I do have someone who cares about me a lot and watches out for me kind of like a mother figure. I tend to hold on to that perception and I take what she says deeply to heart partly because I care deeply about her and partly because I trust and respect that she knows me and what s best for me. I wanted to write though because she shared concerns with me about being nieve and inexperienced with certain things. It was posed as a legitimate... Feeling Small
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/feeling-small.49795/

Storify Posts

How does the Storify posts work? pick out any thing on here and post it to Storify by Anthony Parsons. Done. Explain privacy.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/storify-posts.49794/

Who Opened The Box Of Idiots ! And Never Shut The Lid.

Is it the silly season that brings out the Idiots, or are the just hiding, laying in wait, playing Possum. Christ only knows, It`s a battle enough to make it day to day without these people in my life. My Psychiatrist has for many years, told me try not to put yourself in certain situations, try to have an exit and best of all stay as calm as you can. It`s the season to be Festive, drink , be merry, go out and have fun. I`m out having as much fun as I thought was appropriate, for those that... Who Opened The Box Of Idiots ! And Never Shut The Lid.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/who-opened-the-box-of-idiots-and-never-shut-the-lid.49793/

Name Change

I am intersted to know if I am able to change my name-am I below the number of posts allowed, to change my name?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/name-change.49791/

Difficult Decision

This isn t really a PTSD thing, but I would really appreciate an objective point of view on a difficult decision I have to make. I have a dog. I ve only had her about 6 months, she s a rescue. My boyfriend (who suffers from PTSD) has two dogs also. I have never brought her around to his place, for a number of reasons. These include - that his fences are too low - the fact that she is a very big dog, and his dogs are very small (and my dog gets a bit nippy with small dogs sometimes) - the fact... Difficult Decision
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/difficult-decision.49792/

Accepting Being All Alone In The World

I recently left my very abusive and psychopathic boyfriend. It was hard as hell because we were so in love with each other, but I can t be with someone so disgustingly corrupt. I have my ESA cats and a few friends. However, I ve learned I need to accept being alone in this world. I have no family, no romantic love, no romantic interests, etc. There is no one that makes my heart sing. And honestly, after falling so deeply in love with a psychopath, I don t know if I can trust my heart... Accepting Being All Alone In The World
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/accepting-being-all-alone-in-the-world.49790/

Being Pulled In Different Directions

As the holidays approached my spouse anger and level of ability to cope has only escalated. I ve completely backed off and no longer question him about where he s going. Some nights he sleeps in the bed with me with his own blanket. This is his norm since his return almost two years ago from a war zone. Other nights he sleeps on the chaise lounge curled up in a ball with all the lights in. Our finances are overwhelming and he hasn t made great decisions lately by borrowing money to travel out... Being Pulled In Different Directions
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/being-pulled-in-different-directions.49788/

Anyone Else Had Their Post Put Up On Storify By Anthony

Yes the web, but thought maybe it was a place that understood that invasion is traumatic. New, and very very , well vomited when I found it and now just mad as hell. Putting my post up on Stofity signed Anthony Parsons. Beware of predators.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/anyone-else-had-their-post-put-up-on-storify-by-anthony.49787/

Trying To Say Something

I ve been in therapy for almost a year now. For the most part, it s been challenging and helpful. I like my therapist and she knows what she s doing. I have a lot of anxiety, some attachment issues from my alcoholic family, and trauma related to a past abusive relationship. I ve done EMDR, talk therapy, meditation, and I see a bodyworker once a week which has been an amazing experience and really helped me in everything I do (therapy included). I know myself pretty well. I know my... Trying To Say Something
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/trying-to-say-something.49786/

Former Delta Force Doctor Named Top Rural Physician In America

Former Delta Force doctor named top rural physician in America http://www.stripes.com/news/former-delta-force-doctor-named-top-rural-physician-in-america-1.320439 J R
https://www.mycombatptsd.com/threads/former-delta-force-doctor-named-top-rural-physician-in-america.3671/

Getting Out Of My Head Advice In Confessional.

So I went to confession 1.5 weeks ago and confessed not trusting God with his plan for my life and suicidal attempts, thoughts etc. The priest was a psychologist too. He recommended doing small things for others and to try to not focus on my life. I already did a lot of volunteering but decided to make an effort to do two small things for others/strangers to see how it would make me feel. One thing was to just smile and focus on listening to others more. It helped me to get out of my... Getting Out Of My Head Advice In Confessional.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/getting-out-of-my-head-advice-in-confessional.49784/

Can I Ever Live A Normal Life?

Okay a little background. I have PTSD from molestation, incest rape child abuse along with emotional and physical abuse. I am beyond terrified of MEN. I m androphobic . (I m 20 the most recent rape happened about 2 months ago) Today I had a major anxiety attack and I made a huge back step to what took me so long to get to. I went to the convenience store today to buy more minutes for my phone and this tall loud guy walk in, he was just so loud and directly behind me. He moved a bit, i don t... Can I Ever Live A Normal Life?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/can-i-ever-live-a-normal-life.49785/

How Was You Christmas?

Just a thread for everyone to share what they got for christmas and how it went generally, trying to find good stuff in christmas this year... I ll start. I ate some sweets at grandma s house, and I got a small simple calculator and a small pack of ramen for christmas. I talked to HER a lot, and well, summs up most good in the christmass time.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/how-was-you-christmas.49783/

Religion And The Domestic Violence Which It Brings

I was raised in a devout Bible following cult (considered a religion in my country, but more a cult than not). There were so many verses told to me that gave the okay to kick the crap out of kids by their parents that I thought it was normal with childrearing. They even had it written in their hymns. My parents never did it to each other but they did it to me and my sister. It was like "Kids, obey your parents. They can do whatever they want." I was proud when I finally defended myself... Religion And The Domestic Violence Which It Brings
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/religion-and-the-domestic-violence-which-it-brings.49782/

Funnies

Funnies
https://www.mycombatptsd.com/threads/funnies.2203/

Hello

Would just like to thank everyone that commented on one of my previous posts .... does anyone ever feel like no matter how much they talk about things though that it never goes away ? It s always there .... domestic abuse is something that is just in the back of my mind ... physical and emotional... I wish I could just forget what happened... but for five years of my life this is all I knew. .. many ppl tell me just to forget but there are days that I cannot walk because of what he did to me... Hello
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/hello.49781/

Loneliness

I hope I picked the correct niche of the forum to write this. I do think it is a part of "other symptoms" and I find it hard to deal with. I have had trouble connecting with people all my life. Mainly because my abuse was going on behind closed doors, I was shy and skittish like a deer and more prone to protecting myself than having a vibrant social life even at school. I tended to be the kid who got picked on until I bashed somebody s face in. The loneliness has been like a defining thread... Loneliness
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/loneliness.49780/

Ptsd And/or Parasite? Babesiosis, Bartonella And Lyme (borreliosis)

I am into my third week of treatment for late stage or “chronic” Lyme disease. The disease has been difficult to diagnose and symptoms associated with Babesia and Bartonella, as identified by my PTSD Doctor, are what led to this diagnosis. The severe insomnia, (freezing) night sweats, irritability, high anxiety, piercing headaches (hot behind the eyes), gasping for air and cognitive impairment etc., may be largely due to these infections. Has anyone here been through this? I am feeling sick... Ptsd And/or Parasite? Babesiosis, Bartonella And Lyme (borreliosis)
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/ptsd-and-or-parasite-babesiosis-bartonella-and-lyme-borreliosis.45804/