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Monday, 6 February 2017

What Was Your Experience With Emdr?

My trauma therapist today said she wants to start EMDR, and encouraged me to do some research. I am wondering what others experiences are, what can I expect?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/what-was-your-experience-with-emdr.70151/

My Name Should Be Lettinggoofhope Right Now...

I don t know if anyone else feels this. Just lately I feel I am struggling more and more to maintain friendships on various levels. Here I often go into chat and follow the conversations but am too scared to join in for fear of not being wanted there. I often feel I am in the way or spoiling the conversation for others. I struggle greatly with reaching out for help. I am ashamed of myself if I am honest as I have been reading through the forums here, listening and learning more about... Isolation, Paranoia And Withdrawal
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/my-name-should-be-lettinggoofhope-right-now.66141/

Isolation, Paranoia And Withdrawal

Dissertation Participants Needed: How Do You Cope With Stress In Your Everyday Life?

So today was terrible. I feel totally out of control. I need a week off. I wish I could not go to the hospital to get a week off. I DO NOT NEED to be in a hospital. I don t wanna die per se, just disappear... isolate. I need f*cking space. But i also need out of my own head. So... I know what I need to do, and that s self-care, blah, blah. Since I HAVE to be at work tomorrow, despite a superbly, life crushingly, shitty day, I m looking for movie suggestions that are light-hardhearted, I... Movie/show Suggestions? For An Extra Sh*tty Day?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/dissertation-participants-needed-how-do-you-cope-with-stress-in-your-everyday-life.70131/

I Hate My Mind

Movie/show Suggestions? For An Extra Sh*tty Day?

So today was terrible. I feel totally out of control. I need a week off. I wish I could not go to the hospital to get a week off. I DO NOT NEED to be in a hospital. I don t wanna die per se, just disappear... isolate. I need f*cking space. But i also need out of my own head. So... I know what I need to do, and that s self-care, blah, blah. Since I HAVE to be at work tomorrow, despite a superbly, life crushingly, shitty day, I m looking for movie suggestions that are light-hardhearted, I... Movie/show Suggestions? For An Extra Sh*tty Day?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/movie-show-suggestions-for-an-extra-sh-tty-day.70147/

While Searching For A Ptsd Service Dog - Found At Amazon

After nearly two years with my love, where he has always been hopeful, trying and doing everything he could, telling me he loved me more than anything, he has now expressed that he has lost hope that we can be together. He says I don t let him calm down, don t give him space when he needs to (after he s attacked me and been very unkind.) I have done my very best to work on my patience, but I do relapse into calling him or writing him when he said he needs to calm down, or missing the boat... Can This Be Saved? Trust Has Been Broken.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/while-searching-for-a-ptsd-service-dog-found-at-amazon.70144/

My Trauma Therapist Wants To Begin Emdr

Does Ptsd Ever Go Away? Do Triggers Ever Stop? I Want To See My Family

I m in a close connection (not romantic) with a male friend. Back in November 2016, he returned after a sudden absence (the original departure aggravated trust and abandonment issues) to tell me that he has a terminal illness. A short time after I read the email, I had a panic attack. With him, I had them a lot at the beginning and with being able to trust and consistency, I managed these worries. What happened that night was different. I experienced the feeling of multiple panic... Would This Be Ptsd Or Grief?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/does-ptsd-ever-go-away-do-triggers-ever-stop-i-want-to-see-my-family.70142/

Nervous About Chest Exam After Airport Experience.

I m in a close connection (not romantic) with a male friend. Back in November 2016, he returned after a sudden absence (the original departure aggravated trust and abandonment issues) to tell me that he has a terminal illness. A short time after I read the email, I had a panic attack. With him, I had them a lot at the beginning and with being able to trust and consistency, I managed these worries. What happened that night was different. I experienced the feeling of multiple panic... Would This Be Ptsd Or Grief?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/nervous-about-chest-exam-after-airport-experience.70143/

Ocd, Anxiety, Guilt And Shame

Hello guys, as we all know good nutrition is important for our mental and physical health but our symptoms often make it hard to fix some food. That is why I would like to start a collection of recipes that are healthy and easy to make without too much effort- so that we can even prepare them when we re down and triggered by our symptoms. Here s my first suggestion: Paprika Peppers with cream cheese (for 2 persons) Ingredients: 2 big paprika peppers (whatever colour) 200 g... Cooking And Ptsd - How To Make It Easy
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/ocd-anxiety-guilt-and-shame.58456/

Daytime Nightmares Whilst Awake

Hello I have suffered from PTSD since my aunt died very tragically from cancer several years ago. I keep feeling trapped in that evil time and I keep feeling like its only just happened,it happened several years ago in January and whenever the shitty weather is the same and it s a Monday,it feels like it s only the day after she died because that was a shitty cold white sky winter day with rain and my mum was so devastated and had to have Valium to help her crying. And now mums I ll and... Unbearable Flashbacks Of Aunty s Death Comes Back And I m In Pain
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/daytime-nightmares-whilst-awake.70141/

Lying About S/i

I m seeing a new therapist for the first time tomorrow, she s a trauma therapist. I ve never worked with a trauma T before, any advice? What should I expect? What have your experiences been?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/lying-about-s-i.70139/

Progress For Chitoshi Yesterday!

Unbearable Flashbacks Of Aunty's Death Comes Back And I'm In Pain

5 Things I'm Thinking Today

My husband and I were sitting at our dinner table and he just told me, very seriously and matter-of-factly, that he though it was best if I killed myself. When I got upset, he said that he just wants the what s best for me and is just thinking about me and how much I struggle. He said that he doesn t think I will ever get better or get over the Abuse from my childhood and that maybe it would be better to start over with a new life. I am really upset right now. I thought I was making... Is He Right?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/5-things-im-thinking-today.60436/

First Day Back

Not Sure About Going To Exercise Class

Thoughts About Trauma

So I ve been in PT for sciatica and somehow ended up with something worse, sprained ribs on my left side. (I m pretty sure it was a side plank exercise that did this.) This has really done me in. TMJ is acting up again plus I ve got some undiagnosed pain in my wrist and hand. All are worse than the sciatica, because they re constant pains. The way I learned to manage my TMJ pain is to keep my focus on my jaw and will it to relax. Repeat, repeat, repeat, ad nauseum, during most conscious... Mental Exercises To Help Sprains?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/thoughts-about-trauma.70130/

Rant: Baptism, Video Testimony, Aphasia

Folic Acid

Feeling Guilt And Responsibility After Losing My Dad Due To Medical Complication

Mental Exercises To Help Sprains?

Dealing With Guilt After A Traumatic Death

This is a silly game for all of us to connect whom usually disconnect. I will start with a word. The next person to post must post the first word that comes to mind (articles and prepositions do not count: the, a, an, of, etc.). The next person looks at the last post, posts their first word association, and so on. Please post your word at the end of your post so that this is the last word the next person reads and their association can be clear! The fun of the game is getting from... A Turn Away From Dissociation: The Association Thread
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/dealing-with-guilt-after-a-traumatic-death.70129/

Stupid Triggers

So I have posted on here and received great advice and support, and have found it really helps. To those who have viewed and responded to my past posts, thank you. On to the post. I reference the Military a lot because most people don t understand the life, so I feel like explaining will give better insight and, in short, better responses. So in the military, you are bound by law and orders to go to complete your tasks. To be at work, regardless of your feelings or emotional state that day.... Anxiety Through Stress
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/stupid-triggers.70127/

Not Who I Want To Be

Running In Circles- Deeper I Go, The Faster I Lose Myself

I ve been dating my girlfriend for a few months now, and she has C-PTSD. We re both in the process of working out how to work through things together, how best to deal with things when she has a flashback, when she gets overwhelmed etc. At the minute I m OK with that aspect of the relationship. My question is around how to look after myself. I know that to look after her, I need to look after myself, not lose myself, still do my own thing. The issue is that I seem to have problems switching... How Do You Switch Off?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/running-in-circles-deeper-i-go-the-faster-i-lose-myself.70125/

Tired Of Pretending

tired of telling every one I m ok feeling lke this I had good few days and Iit starred going down I wasup most of ngiht nightmares flash backs my head pounding I m tired took it all out on ash this morning so now I feel guilty the front door was left unlocked normally I do it every night went to go to school couldn t find my keys car was frozen I wen flying spilt coffee was trying sort Bradley out tidy kitchen gget my self ready for... Tired Of Pretending
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/tired-of-pretending.70124/

How Do You Switch Off?

With a married (but separated) couple - one inebriated after 2 bottles of wine and the other completely sober? Because one was drunk and sex occurs, does that automatically mean sexual assault? Or do I need to share more information? I have had drunken regrettable sex and more "black and white" drunken/sober rapes, but a recent experience is leaving me umm ...confused and a multitude of other emotions I am trying to avoid. T says it was sexual assault, but I do not want to believe her.... Does Alcohol Always Mean Lack Of Consent?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/how-do-you-switch-off.70123/

Sunday, 5 February 2017

Bad Episode

i can not tell you how glad I am to have stumbled across this site! I have a history of complex PTSD with sexual Abuse......I have flashbacks and various degrees of dissociation to losing time completely ....the losing time completely really scares me ..it has not happened too often...I always have aura before different stages of dissociation like a flashing red light inside my brain ....I picture my brain like a fuse box ,ptsd is like the ignition for fuses to start blowing....makes... Bad Episode
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/bad-episode.70120/