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Monday, 2 January 2017

Ten, Twenty, Thirty - Words, For When Sentences Evade You

Hey I found your web site, while surfing for any new treatments I have not yet tried to "fix" my PTSD cause Needle/Medical Phobia. When I was about 4 or 5 I had a large cyst under my arm (arm pit) . I also had a hi fever. My family Doctor suggested that they lance and drain the cyst. They used a strong topical my told me. Even right now typing and think about this makes me feel uneasy. The topical did not work and I can now remember I felt like I was being butchered alive. Remember I was... New Here Real Bad Medical/needle Phobia Caused By A Truama.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/ten-twenty-thirty-words-for-when-sentences-evade-you.26417/

So Many Inspiring People

I am wondering if anyone will share their experiences of sex with their therapist. I would post this in therapy forum but I m afraid most people won t admit to this unless it s more anonymous. I genuinely believe sex with a therapist can be very cathartic. I know society frowns on this because of the power differential but I do believe there are scenarios where safe touch from a qualified professional could be so healing. Has anyone had sexual contact with their therapist? If so, how did... Sex With Therapist
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/so-many-inspiring-people.68791/

Have You Ever Diagnosed A Person You Don't Know Very Well With Ptsd

What do those of you whose sufferers find Christmas and especially news years eve problematic do for the holidays? My sufferer cannot stand the chaos and especially the fireworks and noises at New Year s Eve. I am not sure why he cannot stand Christmas. We have children together and will meet with family on Christmas.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/have-you-ever-diagnosed-a-person-you-dont-know-very-well-with-ptsd.68788/

Is This Even Ptsd??? Or Just Angry Depression?

So Glad The Holidays Are Over.

I got a nice shiny new one ripped for the holidays today. Happy New Years, eh? How many other supporters received theirs? If so, what are you drinking, because I m buying the virtual drinks to cry in to...
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/so-glad-the-holidays-are-over.68787/

Sunday, 1 January 2017

New Here Real Bad Medical/needle Phobia Caused By A Truama.

Up to the age of 19 I was a happy go lucky kid I joined the Military had 1 terrible deployment to Iraq and got out in 2009 since then I ve struggled with trying to be normal it s not working. I ve gained like 200 pounds, I m tired all the time and just recently had a mental breakdown to were I had myself admitted to the hospital for a bit over a week. just recently I ve started seeing my doc at the VA for metal health and now I m going from medication to medication. I have bad... Need Some Advice
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/new-here-real-bad-medical-needle-phobia-caused-by-a-truama.66125/

Why Am I Being Judged

I feel suffocated but having many things wrong with me should not cause me to be judged. I can t be who I want to be afraid of being judged. I listen to country and pop music. My dad always rush into the room and tell me to cut that honkey tonk shit off. There are topics on this forum that many can t discuss with others. I always wanted to dress the way I wanted to. Because there is something wrong with a person that person not be looked at or treated any different. I go through nothing but... Why Am I Being Judged
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/why-am-i-being-judged.68785/

Social Media Dedicated To Trauma?

My PTSD symptoms have increased in both frequency and intensity over the last 5 or 6 months, esp. at work. I ve always had issues at this job. Certain members of management bully employees, there is a lack of ethics across the board that everyone is expected to support and a disrespect for anyone under management. About a year ago, I became part of the management team (after it was given to someone else but I was expected to do all the work) and have been doing it since. While I generally... Intense Triggers At Work
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/social-media-dedicated-to-trauma.68784/

How Did I Make It Through This?

I know it s SO easy for all of us to remember the bad things through out the year that happen. Yet when we have something good happen or we have a happy moment, we tend to forget as the bad pushes the good out. SO this year I am going to try something a little different. I m going to take a 2 quart jar and at the end of each week I m going to write down one GOOD or happy thing that happened, fold it up,and put it in the jar. Then at the end of the year I ll open up the jar and read... Positive Thinking For 2017!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/how-did-i-make-it-through-this.68783/

Positive Thinking For 2017!

My Step-son Tried To Kill Me

I met with my therapist today and we discussed my inner critic- the voice inside me that absorbed negative messages from my parents and school bullies when I was a child. This inner critic loathes almost everything about me. Much of what I see and hear is through the prism of this inner critic. Yes, what I endured during childhood was unfair and very painful and shaming, but with my inner critic raging full time nobody seems to stand a chance with me. I constantly put myself and others in a... Inner Critic/beast Within
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/my-step-son-tried-to-kill-me.68781/

Sympathy And Blaming Mental Illness For Someone Who Suicides And Murders Their Children?

I know that there is a terribly huge cyclone in Australia. I hope all are safe. Here in the States, we have had a huge winter storm sweep across the central and eastern part of the country. Particularly bad in Chicago and I know we have members there. Stay safe everyone! ISH
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/sympathy-and-blaming-mental-illness-for-someone-who-suicides-and-murders-their-children.58586/

I Don't Know If It's Anxiety Or Depression Or Both...

I m not sure where to post this. I think I ve been battling the symptoms of complex PTSD for years, but it wasn t until this past year that someone actually recognized it. Therapists have been trying to treat me with "just" Depression all these years - well, depression and DID - but they ve ignored the stress reactions I ve been having. Not until this therapist and nearly 4 years of very difficult therapy did I finally get a better idea of what I m dealing with. But I still am having... Intense Fear And Sobbing
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-dont-know-if-its-anxiety-or-depression-or-both.68780/

The Mental Health Benefits of Yoga

Many people practice yoga for the sake of health, relaxation and fun. Practicing yoga has gained international popularity, meaning local classes usually aren t hard to find, and it s so simple to pick up and practice that many people do it solely in the comfort of their own home. What you might not realize is that [ ]
https://www.myptsd.com/the-mental-health-benefits-of-yoga/1113/

Eye Issues

Career Advise

I feel I can’t ask any more of L. than what she does/gives. She does so much as it is, is so overworked, and has physical/emotional issues of her own. Still, I’m going to assert myself in not wanting her to interrupt me when I’m talking. I usually just accept it on the grounds that I’m not worth listening to. When I do object she gets angry or shuts down- throwing me into an emotional flashback of my parents rejecting me. The same also happens when I speak to her and she doesn’t respond... A Marriage In Crisis
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/career-advise.68777/

Question About Seroquel Xr, For Anxiety, Not For Insomnia

First time holding Lily View attachment 37602
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/question-about-seroquel-xr-for-anxiety-not-for-insomnia.61378/

Wife Has Many Signs Of Ptsd, Though Undiagnosed. (i Am Diagnosed)

Riluzole Or Ketamine?

Hello All, I am writing because I want the truth and to see if anyone has wanted to accomplish what I have accomplished. I think I may have high functioning autism. I also have PTSD, Anxiety, and panic attacks but haven t in a long while. I have taken up weight lifting for the last 8 months or so. I have not adopted a right eating regime but have a workout routine that is vigorous. This is my new years resolution. I want to try steroids but do not want roid rage. I have done research on... Steroids And Ptsd
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/riluzole-or-ketamine.68774/

Possibly Retraumatized By Therapist, What To Do?

Sex With Therapist

Struggling

I am hoping this is a cool idea . . . I realize I was just having an emotional flashback due to an argument taking place in a parking lot near me. I completely froze, lost it! And remembered how scared I would become during the fights in my home. I tried my best to look invisible. The few times I tried to get involved I got hurt. Nights are often hard for me. My inner child keeps bringing forth suppressed memories. She is in great need so as crazy as it seems I thought why not start a... Inner Child Party Room
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/struggling.68771/

I Finaly Understand My Purpose.

As a way to cope, I made a list of things I am grateful for today. It s something that I have found to be useful in the past. It has a stabilizing effect for me. It helps me keep a broader, more accurate, perspective. It doesn t always make me feel better. However, it usually does make coping a little easier. What am I grateful for today? I woke up this morning. I awoke from a restless night s sleep in my own bed. I didn t wake up with a hangover. I am grateful to start my day... What Are You Grateful For Today?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-finaly-understand-my-purpose.68769/

Dear My Ptsd Folks

Walking The Dogs

My GF, a PTSD Sufferer is spoiling the otherwise enjoyable activity of Dog Walking. She counts her paces, sometimes quite audibly. She doesn t know why she has to do it, she just has to. She can be in the thousands, stop to look at something or even stop for sustenance then know exactly where she left off and start counting again. Has anyone any experience of this, or similar, or is this more OCD ?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/walking-the-dogs.68768/

Nothing Says Isolation More Than Spending Your Birthday Alone

Some of you know that my now husband has a past porn issue and is going to a group for men with sex addiction issues. Apparently some of the wives of the men in the group keep getting diagnosed with PTSD based on finding out about their husbands betrayals be it porn or something else. When did this become a good thing to do?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/nothing-says-isolation-more-than-spending-your-birthday-alone.38033/

Happy Birthday Ms Spock

Search Debacle

As long as I m working and in that part of myself, I can t feel pain. At all. Not hunger or tiredness or even getting injured. But once I stop working, the pain is incredible. Shooting, stabbing, electrical. It s so overwhelming - and physical, although I definitley wonder if it is psychological in origins. It s also not just a headache. It s deeper than that, radiates out from my core, makes noise impossible, sun harder, touch painful. How do I deal with this? I know the concept of "not... How Do You Deal With Physical (emotional) Pain?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/search-debacle.68766/