Was A Wonderful Life

Hello. I suffer from PTSD/CPTSD. I had such a wonderful life, wonderful wife and family. I lost most everything in a very short time. My mother had leukemia and Alzheimer s.....So she lived with us. I had been laid off so took care of her on days and wife did in the evenings. My mother had a miriad of complications from this, but we managed. Then my wife lost her job. I had a small breakdown. My mother had a pacemaker installed and coded on the operating table. But doctor revived... Was A Wonderful Life
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/was-a-wonderful-life.64390/

Sheilakathy's Back Online

I ve seen this on other forums and thought I d start one here, just 5 things that are on your mind today, can be totally random, and they don t have to be questions, just 5 things you re thinking today. For example: 1. The room is way too hot. 2. I m thirsty. 3. I miss having a pet. 4. Still don t understand how tv works. 5. I think I ll start a new thread.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/sheilakathys-back-online.64389/

The "official" Diagnosis Is In?

This is a silly game for all of us to connect whom usually disconnect. I will start with a word. The next person to post must post the first word that comes to mind (articles and prepositions do not count: the, a, an, of, etc.). The next person looks at the last post, posts their first word association, and so on. Please post your word at the end of your post so that this is the last word the next person reads and their association can be clear! The fun of the game is getting from... A Turn Away From Dissociation: The Association Thread
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/the-official-diagnosis-is-in.64387/

2016 Olympic Refugee Team

This is a silly game for all of us to connect whom usually disconnect. I will start with a word. The next person to post must post the first word that comes to mind (articles and prepositions do not count: the, a, an, of, etc.). The next person looks at the last post, posts their first word association, and so on. Please post your word at the end of your post so that this is the last word the next person reads and their association can be clear! The fun of the game is getting from... A Turn Away From Dissociation: The Association Thread
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/2016-olympic-refugee-team.64388/

You Know You Have Complex Trauma When......

Hi guys, a friend (who has had training) has suggested I try rewind technique. Anybody have any experience of this? She said I m way to anxious to do it yet so need to work on relaxation first. Me and relaxation just don t go together, I have exercises to do everyday from now on to try to get me to a point stable enough to try it. Grateful for any experiences of rewind technique, advice, resources etc Thanks
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/you-know-you-have-complex-trauma-when.47906/

Veteran

When I first started healing after my assault, I experienced a strange tingling sensation behind and within my nose every time I had emotions that were building up. It became my body s way of warning me I was about to have a crying spell and it never failed - either later that day or the following morning, I d just cry out what ever I needed to process. This experience presented itself for about 2-3 years and later disappeared. Prior to my assault, my perpetrator gave me a chemical without... Sensory Experiences
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/veteran.64385/

Sensory Experiences

When I first started healing after my assault, I experienced a strange tingling sensation behind and within my nose every time I had emotions that were building up. It became my body s way of warning me I was about to have a crying spell and it never failed - either later that day or the following morning, I d just cry out what ever I needed to process. This experience presented itself for about 2-3 years and later disappeared. Prior to my assault, my perpetrator gave me a chemical without... Sensory Experiences
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/sensory-experiences.64386/

Saphris

Hello! My name is Sara. I currently live outside of Dallas, Texas with my husband. I am a social worker and I currently work in foster care. I was recently diagnosed with PTSD. I experienced Abuse as a child and in my Military career I experienced more abuse. I have always had problems with Anxiety but now it is really affecting my career and life. I hope to learn a lot from my fellow suffers as well as be able to help others.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/saphris.64382/

I Already Was Being Treated For Ptsd...

Hello! My name is Sara. I currently live outside of Dallas, Texas with my husband. I am a social worker and I currently work in foster care. I was recently diagnosed with PTSD. I experienced Abuse as a child and in my Military career I experienced more abuse. I have always had problems with Anxiety but now it is really affecting my career and life. I hope to learn a lot from my fellow suffers as well as be able to help others.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-already-was-being-treated-for-ptsd.64383/

Willing To Learn And Help Others

Hello! My name is Sara. I currently live outside of Dallas, Texas with my husband. I am a social worker and I currently work in foster care. I was recently diagnosed with PTSD. I experienced Abuse as a child and in my Military career I experienced more abuse. I have always had problems with Anxiety but now it is really affecting my career and life. I hope to learn a lot from my fellow suffers as well as be able to help others.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/willing-to-learn-and-help-others.64384/

Introduction

I ve experienced victim/witness trauma including sex crimes perpetrated against me, witnessing violent crimes, and being a victim of violent crimes. I m a feminist, activist, and I rescue and train dogs as a hobby. I m super pro-pet therapy. I don t talk much in detail about what happened to me. I will say that from that string of awful and traumatic incidents I now also have both hpv and hsv. I am still a survivor. I don t just consider myself lucky. I know how to survive. And even in... Introduction
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/introduction.64381/

Do I Disclose?

I remember the day well, I was in the bathroom and little, I don t remember my age. I was looking in the mirror in my bathroom. Tears starting to run out of my eyes. A moment of strength came, I pushed those tears back, you all probably know why. I needed a parent so bad. I was desperate, but I had no one. So I spoke to myself in the mirror and said,"okay your going to need to be my Mom." Ever since I have had this part of me who speaks to me. She is gentle, loving, wise, and intuitive.... Creating Another "part"
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/do-i-disclose.62369/

Are You Flexible / Hypermobile?

I remember the day well, I was in the bathroom and little, I don t remember my age. I was looking in the mirror in my bathroom. Tears starting to run out of my eyes. A moment of strength came, I pushed those tears back, you all probably know why. I needed a parent so bad. I was desperate, but I had no one. So I spoke to myself in the mirror and said,"okay your going to need to be my Mom." Ever since I have had this part of me who speaks to me. She is gentle, loving, wise, and intuitive.... Creating Another "part"
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/are-you-flexible-hypermobile.64380/

Stressor vs. Trigger - What Is A Trigger?

I remember the day well, I was in the bathroom and little, I don t remember my age. I was looking in the mirror in my bathroom. Tears starting to run out of my eyes. A moment of strength came, I pushed those tears back, you all probably know why. I needed a parent so bad. I was desperate, but I had no one. So I spoke to myself in the mirror and said,"okay your going to need to be my Mom." Ever since I have had this part of me who speaks to me. She is gentle, loving, wise, and intuitive.... Creating Another "part"
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/stressor-vs-trigger-what-is-a-trigger.9903/

Hello

I remember the day well, I was in the bathroom and little, I don t remember my age. I was looking in the mirror in my bathroom. Tears starting to run out of my eyes. A moment of strength came, I pushed those tears back, you all probably know why. I needed a parent so bad. I was desperate, but I had no one. So I spoke to myself in the mirror and said,"okay your going to need to be my Mom." Ever since I have had this part of me who speaks to me. She is gentle, loving, wise, and intuitive.... Creating Another "part"
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/hello.64379/

Rewind Technique

There have been times where it seems or feels like another uncontrollable part of me "takes over" and I m along for the ride. Specifically when stressed or majorly triggered I can become irritable, angry and borderlining on cruel. The way I speak changes to include profanity.... not just in anger but in regular conversation as well (completely unlike me). Recently I ve noticed during the extended times of triggering like this I tend to give the wrong phone number.... my childhood phone... Structural Dissociation
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/rewind-technique.64378/

Anxiety And Falling Down The Rabbit Hole

There have been times where it seems or feels like another uncontrollable part of me "takes over" and I m along for the ride. Specifically when stressed or majorly triggered I can become irritable, angry and borderlining on cruel. The way I speak changes to include profanity.... not just in anger but in regular conversation as well (completely unlike me). Recently I ve noticed during the extended times of triggering like this I tend to give the wrong phone number.... my childhood phone... Structural Dissociation
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/anxiety-and-falling-down-the-rabbit-hole.64377/

Self-respect

Hello, and wow, this is quite scarier than I thought it would be. I live where there are no support groups, nor any experienced therapists for PTSD and I have had C-PTSD for around 41 years and am learning that it has impacted my life and my family much more than I ever realized. So, since I m now able to begin the gut-wrenching climb out of the dark hole we seem to plummet into without any warning, I am giving this online support system a try.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/self-respect.64376/

Constant Chatter

So, my GP prescribed it to me today (for pain), but my T is not wanting me to take any medications. I HATE medications. I have not taken it yet. What are your experiences with this drug? Does it worsen symptoms? Anxiety, fatigue? Weight gain?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/constant-chatter.64373/

Abilify And Nervousness? Can't Stop Moving

So, my GP prescribed it to me today (for pain), but my T is not wanting me to take any medications. I HATE medications. I have not taken it yet. What are your experiences with this drug? Does it worsen symptoms? Anxiety, fatigue? Weight gain?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/abilify-and-nervousness-cant-stop-moving.64374/

Neurontin (gabapentin)

So, my GP prescribed it to me today (for pain), but my T is not wanting me to take any medications. I HATE medications. I have not taken it yet. What are your experiences with this drug? Does it worsen symptoms? Anxiety, fatigue? Weight gain?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/neurontin-gabapentin.64375/

Finally Delivered From Gabapentin

Great to have found this place! I ve been married for 15 years and only now realized my wife has CPSTD. When we first got married and had our son, I d be greeted at the door coming home from work with an argument that ended in "maybe we don t need to be together anymore". I stopped engaging with her and told her I didn t want to hear about it again until she had divorce papers in hand. It was quite hard for me to be a new father and husband and have to deal with her issues. I delved into... Wife Has Cptsd And Is Pushing Me Away.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/finally-delivered-from-gabapentin.64372/

Wife Has Cptsd And Is Pushing Me Away.

In my opinion, those of us who have suffered at the hands of others blame ourselves for the deeds of evil people. If not blame ourselves, then we at the very least try to rationalize and understand what evil-doers do. I think we do so because everything needs to make sense. And if we can make sense of things, no matter what they are, then we can decipher these things and file them away in our brain s vault never to bother us again. It is no wonder why PTSD as well as other mental health... Now I Get It. I Will Never Get It!!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/wife-has-cptsd-and-is-pushing-me-away.64368/

Workers Compensation And Nurse Case Manger

In my opinion, those of us who have suffered at the hands of others blame ourselves for the deeds of evil people. If not blame ourselves, then we at the very least try to rationalize and understand what evil-doers do. I think we do so because everything needs to make sense. And if we can make sense of things, no matter what they are, then we can decipher these things and file them away in our brain s vault never to bother us again. It is no wonder why PTSD as well as other mental health... Now I Get It. I Will Never Get It!!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/workers-compensation-and-nurse-case-manger.64369/

Everyday

In my opinion, those of us who have suffered at the hands of others blame ourselves for the deeds of evil people. If not blame ourselves, then we at the very least try to rationalize and understand what evil-doers do. I think we do so because everything needs to make sense. And if we can make sense of things, no matter what they are, then we can decipher these things and file them away in our brain s vault never to bother us again. It is no wonder why PTSD as well as other mental health... Now I Get It. I Will Never Get It!!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/everyday.64370/

Introducing My Parts..where Have You Been?

Off the bat, I have to say thank you to saelben for pointing me in the right direction. Compared to some of the horror stories I ve read here, my story is dull. I guess it boils down to the fact that my mother hated and resented me from the moment she found out she was pregnant (she blamed me for my conception), and she made sure that I spent every moment of my existence apologizing for my life. My father was a narcissist who had no emotions to spare, so virtually from birth, I was on my... Rebuilding My Life...
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/introducing-my-parts-where-have-you-been.64367/

Other People

Does anybody else not like people right next to them? I won t get on a machine directly next to somebody at the gym and I won t sit close to somebody at the table. My therapist will sometimes ask to sit next to me on the couch and I ll let her but I don t like it. Anybody else that way?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/other-people.64366/

Recently Diagnosed And Struggling

I tried to bring the old one back to life but I think we need a new story. So this is how this works. I say three words (and only three) and the next poster picks up to add on to it making up a story as we go. Example: Post 1: I walked to Poster 2: the neighborhood park Poster 3: and saw a Make sense? Lets see if we can make a long story! Ok so lets start with: And saw a
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/recently-diagnosed-and-struggling.64365/

Geodon, Anyone? Experiences Good, Bad, Foggy, Hallucinogenic?

For you to describe your day in emoticons when words just aren t cutting it. Smilie help: https://www.myptsd.com/c/help/smilies My day today felt like
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/geodon-anyone-experiences-good-bad-foggy-hallucinogenic.35903/

Strange Star

When I was at probably my rock bottom in terms of fungicidal ideation/intent/attempts, my therapist "used" Guilt to try to keep me alive. Basically, he pulled the "kid" card - and was very much upfront about it - told me that I would damage them for life if I committed Suicide (and he also told me he would use any method he had to keep me alive). I am in a much better place now but had a recurrence of the suicide ideation and we had a very different conversation. He told me that we both... Guilt Versus Truth
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/strange-star.40540/