2 Strikes And Still Here.

I haven t been raped or done anything sexual I didn t want to. I have however been kissed against my will. I know I know pretty tame stuff on a forum like this where people have horrible stories. It s not the kissing that bothered though. It was the fact that I did not stand up for myself. I was a first date and we went to the movies. He leaned to kiss me and I told him I don t kiss on the first date. Well he didn t take no for an answer and held my face and well you know how a kiss goes.... Has A Date Ever Pushed You To Do Something You Didn t Want To?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/2-strikes-and-still-here.63366/

Forbidden On Wifi

I haven t been raped or done anything sexual I didn t want to. I have however been kissed against my will. I know I know pretty tame stuff on a forum like this where people have horrible stories. It s not the kissing that bothered though. It was the fact that I did not stand up for myself. I was a first date and we went to the movies. He leaned to kiss me and I told him I don t kiss on the first date. Well he didn t take no for an answer and held my face and well you know how a kiss goes.... Has A Date Ever Pushed You To Do Something You Didn t Want To?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/forbidden-on-wifi.63367/

Do Us English Find Uk English Annoying?

This is a very difficult topic for me to discuss so please listen to my heart. Yesterday morning I woke up to a group text from a very close friend of mine. She began to share with our intimate circle of sisters about how her 13 yr old daughter our niece was raped in her home. My little niece disobeyed her parents rules and while her mom left to run an errand, invited a boy over to her house and up to her bedroom. While the little brother was in their parents bedroom playing on the... My Heart Is Aching Right Now
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/do-us-english-find-uk-english-annoying.63365/

Ptsd Or Just A Reason To Be A Jerk?

This was interesting insight I just had and feeling tension in my body still (mainly arms, shoulders, back, neck, throat, and genitals... the usual) and slightly anxious, but I am mainly insanely fascinated by what I just did and achieved in insight: I m reading The Body Keeps The Score by Bessel van der Kolk and it mentioned flashback image memory in one of the earlier chapters, and I could feel tension in my body building and I knew what was going to happen anyways (I know my triggers and... Experiment Inspired By Reading A Trauma Book: Thoughts And Experiences?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/ptsd-or-just-a-reason-to-be-a-jerk.63363/

Experiment Inspired By Reading A Trauma Book: Thoughts And Experiences?

This was interesting insight I just had and feeling tension in my body still (mainly arms, shoulders, back, neck, throat, and genitals... the usual) and slightly anxious, but I am mainly insanely fascinated by what I just did and achieved in insight: I m reading The Body Keeps The Score by Bessel van der Kolk and it mentioned flashback image memory in one of the earlier chapters, and I could feel tension in my body building and I knew what was going to happen anyways (I know my triggers and... Experiment Inspired By Reading A Trauma Book: Thoughts And Experiences?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/experiment-inspired-by-reading-a-trauma-book-thoughts-and-experiences.63364/

Trauma Induces More Alcohol Craving Than Stress Among Veterans With Ptsd And Co-occurring...

Im having thoughts! I won t take action. My kids need me...but the child inside me wants to die. I just need to talk about it.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/trauma-induces-more-alcohol-craving-than-stress-among-veterans-with-ptsd-and-co-occurring.63360/

S/i

Im having thoughts! I won t take action. My kids need me...but the child inside me wants to die. I just need to talk about it.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/s-i.63362/

Domestic Violence As A Trigger

I can t do it I can t go to Physical therapy for my pelvic floor dysfunction. I ve already gone 3 times, and the physical therapy involves the therapist going inside my vagina. And it triggers me everytime I go, and I want to talk to my other therapist about this but I am too ashamed and afraid he ll ask personal questions. I have been lying to him about it telling him I am fine when really I am not. I don t like being touched down there and I feel deep shame and embarrassment when my... I Can t Go To Physical Therapy.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/domestic-violence-as-a-trigger.63347/

New To Forum

I can t do it I can t go to Physical therapy for my pelvic floor dysfunction. I ve already gone 3 times, and the physical therapy involves the therapist going inside my vagina. And it triggers me everytime I go, and I want to talk to my other therapist about this but I am too ashamed and afraid he ll ask personal questions. I have been lying to him about it telling him I am fine when really I am not. I don t like being touched down there and I feel deep shame and embarrassment when my... I Can t Go To Physical Therapy.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/new-to-forum.63356/

I Always Come Home To Me

I can t do it I can t go to Physical therapy for my pelvic floor dysfunction. I ve already gone 3 times, and the physical therapy involves the therapist going inside my vagina. And it triggers me everytime I go, and I want to talk to my other therapist about this but I am too ashamed and afraid he ll ask personal questions. I have been lying to him about it telling him I am fine when really I am not. I don t like being touched down there and I feel deep shame and embarrassment when my... I Can t Go To Physical Therapy.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-always-come-home-to-me.63357/

I Can't Go To Physical Therapy.

I can t do it I can t go to Physical therapy for my pelvic floor dysfunction. I ve already gone 3 times, and the physical therapy involves the therapist going inside my vagina. And it triggers me everytime I go, and I want to talk to my other therapist about this but I am too ashamed and afraid he ll ask personal questions. I have been lying to him about it telling him I am fine when really I am not. I don t like being touched down there and I feel deep shame and embarrassment when my... I Can t Go To Physical Therapy.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-cant-go-to-physical-therapy.63358/

Paying Bills Is So Scary!

There is another thread on how to know when you are in crisis. My question is different. When I m in crisis, I know. But I m not sure how to define it for anyone else. Someone asked me a very reasonable question today: when I say I am in crisis, what do I mean? And what can others do that helps me? I m surprised at how hard it is to put it into words. I think of recent crises and what has been happening, and still can t find words. There will be different answers here, no doubt. I m... What Exactly Is A Crisis?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/paying-bills-is-so-scary.60062/

Bumbleweed Trauma Diary

There is another thread on how to know when you are in crisis. My question is different. When I m in crisis, I know. But I m not sure how to define it for anyone else. Someone asked me a very reasonable question today: when I say I am in crisis, what do I mean? And what can others do that helps me? I m surprised at how hard it is to put it into words. I think of recent crises and what has been happening, and still can t find words. There will be different answers here, no doubt. I m... What Exactly Is A Crisis?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/bumbleweed-trauma-diary.62150/

Lifestyle

@anthony and I are excited to announce we will become first time grandparents in November. Apologies to all members for my unforeseen required work absence. Hope to back soon with my Donations idea and just to catch up with everyone. Thanks for your patience
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/lifestyle.63353/

My Heart Is Aching Right Now

@anthony and I are excited to announce we will become first time grandparents in November. Apologies to all members for my unforeseen required work absence. Hope to back soon with my Donations idea and just to catch up with everyone. Thanks for your patience
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/my-heart-is-aching-right-now.63354/

Girlfriend Of Combat Veteran With Ptsd

I ve been dating this guy since December when he got back from his second deployment. He s hilarious, active, protective, and takes care of everyone close to him. At first everything was fun and new but as time has passed he has become increasingly irritable, he lashes out at the smallest provocation, he hates being touched, he shares none of his thoughts unless they re angry, and I woke up to him screaming in his sleep the other night. I don t want to diagnose him myself, but this seemed... Worried Girlfriend Trying Not To Make Things Worse
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/girlfriend-of-combat-veteran-with-ptsd.26921/

My Innocence Was Stolen

I ve been dating this guy since December when he got back from his second deployment. He s hilarious, active, protective, and takes care of everyone close to him. At first everything was fun and new but as time has passed he has become increasingly irritable, he lashes out at the smallest provocation, he hates being touched, he shares none of his thoughts unless they re angry, and I woke up to him screaming in his sleep the other night. I don t want to diagnose him myself, but this seemed... Worried Girlfriend Trying Not To Make Things Worse
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/my-innocence-was-stolen.44040/

Worried Girlfriend Trying Not To Make Things Worse

My ptsd has been acting up for days. We were supposed to go to a bbq at my s/o s families house today. That s always stressful for me because there are so many people there and my social anxiety goes through the roof. As we pulled into the driveway my s/o hopped out of the car, forgetting my daughter, my niece and I, and then made a snide remark to me. Between the ptsd and the anxiety I just couldn t deal with it. So I drove home, and here I am sitting. :/
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/worried-girlfriend-trying-not-to-make-things-worse.63352/

What Replaces The Need For External Validation?

My ptsd has been acting up for days. We were supposed to go to a bbq at my s/o s families house today. That s always stressful for me because there are so many people there and my social anxiety goes through the roof. As we pulled into the driveway my s/o hopped out of the car, forgetting my daughter, my niece and I, and then made a snide remark to me. Between the ptsd and the anxiety I just couldn t deal with it. So I drove home, and here I am sitting. :/
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/what-replaces-the-need-for-external-validation.59985/

Desparate

I am a 22yo c-trauma person in recovery. I am doing very well at the minute. However, a friend sent me a photo of me from about three or four years ago (pre-crisis) and I was quite surprised by how much I d changed. I see I am a much more serious person, I just look so much more serious! Anyone have any thoughts on this?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/desparate.63350/

Being A "serious" Person?

I am a 22yo c-trauma person in recovery. I am doing very well at the minute. However, a friend sent me a photo of me from about three or four years ago (pre-crisis) and I was quite surprised by how much I d changed. I see I am a much more serious person, I just look so much more serious! Anyone have any thoughts on this?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/being-a-serious-person.63349/

Is The Auto Capsn Off Or On

But I say I am. I have all kinds of issues in can t even say. I m so wasted, I have health issues I can t tell him cause he ll leave. But he ll leave anyway. I don t even know what I know what in trying to say.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/is-the-auto-capsn-off-or-on.63344/

Goodbye Everyone

But I say I am. I have all kinds of issues in can t even say. I m so wasted, I have health issues I can t tell him cause he ll leave. But he ll leave anyway. I don t even know what I know what in trying to say.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/goodbye-everyone.63346/

Toxic Shame And Guilt

But I say I am. I have all kinds of issues in can t even say. I m so wasted, I have health issues I can t tell him cause he ll leave. But he ll leave anyway. I don t even know what I know what in trying to say.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/toxic-shame-and-guilt.63343/

Two Different People

But I say I am. I have all kinds of issues in can t even say. I m so wasted, I have health issues I can t tell him cause he ll leave. But he ll leave anyway. I don t even know what I know what in trying to say.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/two-different-people.63348/

Domestic Violence As A Trigger *trigger Warning*

But I say I am. I have all kinds of issues in can t even say. I m so wasted, I have health issues I can t tell him cause he ll leave. But he ll leave anyway. I don t even know what I know what in trying to say.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/domestic-violence-as-a-trigger-trigger-warning.63347/

Another Holiday Ruined

But I say I am. I have all kinds of issues in can t even say. I m so wasted, I have health issues I can t tell him cause he ll leave. But he ll leave anyway. I don t even know what I know what in trying to say.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/another-holiday-ruined.63345/

Intruding On My Own Life

So this is a forum game I didn t see on here. I post 6 random letters and the next poster makes a real sentence that would make sense out of them then leave 6 more for the jext poster and so on. Example: IAOFTD I am out for the day. Make sense? Ok, here are my 6 random letters, lets see how far we can take this. TJAYFN
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/intruding-on-my-own-life.63341/

Hi There, Newbie Here

So this is a forum game I didn t see on here. I post 6 random letters and the next poster makes a real sentence that would make sense out of them then leave 6 more for the jext poster and so on. Example: IAOFTD I am out for the day. Make sense? Ok, here are my 6 random letters, lets see how far we can take this. TJAYFN
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/hi-there-newbie-here.63342/

I Want To Delete A Thread?

There is a thought-construct that has manifested in my mind during the last few years which causes discomfort(Its actually more than that! It kind of shakes my basic structure) I fear the very fact that I could come across any situation where I dont have control. If someone assults me and I am not able to fight back. I usually try to keep the facade of being somewhat tough and as someone who is able to argue objectively. But the very thought of loosing this ability is extremely panicking.... Weakness Vs Strength
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-want-to-delete-a-thread.63340/