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Sunday, 3 July 2016

I Can't Go To Physical Therapy.

I can t do it I can t go to Physical therapy for my pelvic floor dysfunction. I ve already gone 3 times, and the physical therapy involves the therapist going inside my vagina. And it triggers me everytime I go, and I want to talk to my other therapist about this but I am too ashamed and afraid he ll ask personal questions. I have been lying to him about it telling him I am fine when really I am not. I don t like being touched down there and I feel deep shame and embarrassment when my... I Can t Go To Physical Therapy.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-cant-go-to-physical-therapy.63358/

Paying Bills Is So Scary!

There is another thread on how to know when you are in crisis. My question is different. When I m in crisis, I know. But I m not sure how to define it for anyone else. Someone asked me a very reasonable question today: when I say I am in crisis, what do I mean? And what can others do that helps me? I m surprised at how hard it is to put it into words. I think of recent crises and what has been happening, and still can t find words. There will be different answers here, no doubt. I m... What Exactly Is A Crisis?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/paying-bills-is-so-scary.60062/

Bumbleweed Trauma Diary

Lifestyle

@anthony and I are excited to announce we will become first time grandparents in November. Apologies to all members for my unforeseen required work absence. Hope to back soon with my Donations idea and just to catch up with everyone. Thanks for your patience
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/lifestyle.63353/

My Heart Is Aching Right Now

Girlfriend Of Combat Veteran With Ptsd

I ve been dating this guy since December when he got back from his second deployment. He s hilarious, active, protective, and takes care of everyone close to him. At first everything was fun and new but as time has passed he has become increasingly irritable, he lashes out at the smallest provocation, he hates being touched, he shares none of his thoughts unless they re angry, and I woke up to him screaming in his sleep the other night. I don t want to diagnose him myself, but this seemed... Worried Girlfriend Trying Not To Make Things Worse
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/girlfriend-of-combat-veteran-with-ptsd.26921/

My Innocence Was Stolen

Worried Girlfriend Trying Not To Make Things Worse

My ptsd has been acting up for days. We were supposed to go to a bbq at my s/o s families house today. That s always stressful for me because there are so many people there and my social anxiety goes through the roof. As we pulled into the driveway my s/o hopped out of the car, forgetting my daughter, my niece and I, and then made a snide remark to me. Between the ptsd and the anxiety I just couldn t deal with it. So I drove home, and here I am sitting. :/
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/worried-girlfriend-trying-not-to-make-things-worse.63352/

What Replaces The Need For External Validation?

My ptsd has been acting up for days. We were supposed to go to a bbq at my s/o s families house today. That s always stressful for me because there are so many people there and my social anxiety goes through the roof. As we pulled into the driveway my s/o hopped out of the car, forgetting my daughter, my niece and I, and then made a snide remark to me. Between the ptsd and the anxiety I just couldn t deal with it. So I drove home, and here I am sitting. :/
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/what-replaces-the-need-for-external-validation.59985/

Desparate

I am a 22yo c-trauma person in recovery. I am doing very well at the minute. However, a friend sent me a photo of me from about three or four years ago (pre-crisis) and I was quite surprised by how much I d changed. I see I am a much more serious person, I just look so much more serious! Anyone have any thoughts on this?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/desparate.63350/

Being A "serious" Person?

Is The Auto Capsn Off Or On

But I say I am. I have all kinds of issues in can t even say. I m so wasted, I have health issues I can t tell him cause he ll leave. But he ll leave anyway. I don t even know what I know what in trying to say.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/is-the-auto-capsn-off-or-on.63344/

Goodbye Everyone

Toxic Shame And Guilt

Two Different People

Domestic Violence As A Trigger trigger Warning

Another Holiday Ruined

Intruding On My Own Life

So this is a forum game I didn t see on here. I post 6 random letters and the next poster makes a real sentence that would make sense out of them then leave 6 more for the jext poster and so on. Example: IAOFTD I am out for the day. Make sense? Ok, here are my 6 random letters, lets see how far we can take this. TJAYFN
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/intruding-on-my-own-life.63341/

Hi There, Newbie Here

I Want To Delete A Thread?

There is a thought-construct that has manifested in my mind during the last few years which causes discomfort(Its actually more than that! It kind of shakes my basic structure) I fear the very fact that I could come across any situation where I dont have control. If someone assults me and I am not able to fight back. I usually try to keep the facade of being somewhat tough and as someone who is able to argue objectively. But the very thought of loosing this ability is extremely panicking.... Weakness Vs Strength
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-want-to-delete-a-thread.63340/

Weakness Vs Strength

Eleven Words - One Poem: Elfchen

I had a phone interview and then I was asked to go for a second interview for a job I wanted. I thought the second interview went really well and I passed the manual part with flying colours. At the end of the interview I was told I would hear from them early next week (this week). It is now Sunday and I ve heard nothing. If this was happening to you what would you be thinking? My first thoughts is that I ve been given a bad reference but if I was then surely a simple email saying I was... After Second Interview You Hear Nothing...what Would Be Your Thoughts
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/eleven-words-one-poem-elfchen.45111/

What Fictional Character Best Fits Your Mood Today?

Ptsd And Parenting

Hi There. I'm New Here

Hello everyone. I thought I would join and introduce myself after a long time denying my new "official" PTSD diagnosis (and depression) and finally committing to this healing journey. It s still difficult for me to say aloud, but I m a survivor of CSA, child abuse, and multiple sexual assaults (military and non), with the most recent incident a little over 10 years ago. After several years of running away from everything, major denial, and increasing symptoms, I finally reached out and... Konnichiwa
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/hi-there-im-new-here.63337/

After Second Interview You Hear Nothing...what Would Be Your Thoughts

Konnichiwa

Problem With Online Status Button

I have unchecked the online status button but I m still showing with green on my avatar. I have also requested my recent viewing activity not to be shown but it s still showing. I ve tried checking and uncheckig several times and it doesn t change.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/problem-with-online-status-button.63334/

"couldn't Establish A Secure Connection"

Fact on anti-depressants are anything but what pharmaceutical companies have led you to believe for all these decades. Science is quite honestly really opening quite the shit storm surrounding pills and their effectiveness. I would honestly recommend everyone read this story and look at the evidence. Antidepressants are very hit-and-miss Science of antidepressants based on backward facts Some scientists say they don’t work Hidden side-effects Most linked to weight... Antidepressants: 10 Shocking Studies Everyone Should Know
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/couldnt-establish-a-secure-connection.48909/

Are You Familiar With The Top Ten Distorted Cognitions?

Today was day 1 of "real" trauma therapy. After a year of dialectical behavioral therapy, learning coping skills to keep me from going off the deep end and staying there or worse, I m finally deemed as stable enough by my treatment team to do trauma therapy. The six weeks its taken to do the pre-trauma therapy stuff, get a coping process in place, friends/family/professional supports, has been torture in and of itself. After doing a guided imagery meditation, that was more like hypnosis, I... Trauma Therapy: Seeking Some Support
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/are-you-familiar-with-the-top-ten-distorted-cognitions.57711/