Weakness Vs Strength

There is a thought-construct that has manifested in my mind during the last few years which causes discomfort(Its actually more than that! It kind of shakes my basic structure) I fear the very fact that I could come across any situation where I dont have control. If someone assults me and I am not able to fight back. I usually try to keep the facade of being somewhat tough and as someone who is able to argue objectively. But the very thought of loosing this ability is extremely panicking.... Weakness Vs Strength
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/weakness-vs-strength.63339/

Eleven Words - One Poem: Elfchen

I had a phone interview and then I was asked to go for a second interview for a job I wanted. I thought the second interview went really well and I passed the manual part with flying colours. At the end of the interview I was told I would hear from them early next week (this week). It is now Sunday and I ve heard nothing. If this was happening to you what would you be thinking? My first thoughts is that I ve been given a bad reference but if I was then surely a simple email saying I was... After Second Interview You Hear Nothing...what Would Be Your Thoughts
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/eleven-words-one-poem-elfchen.45111/

What Fictional Character Best Fits Your Mood Today?

I had a phone interview and then I was asked to go for a second interview for a job I wanted. I thought the second interview went really well and I passed the manual part with flying colours. At the end of the interview I was told I would hear from them early next week (this week). It is now Sunday and I ve heard nothing. If this was happening to you what would you be thinking? My first thoughts is that I ve been given a bad reference but if I was then surely a simple email saying I was... After Second Interview You Hear Nothing...what Would Be Your Thoughts
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/what-fictional-character-best-fits-your-mood-today.55927/

Ptsd And Parenting

I had a phone interview and then I was asked to go for a second interview for a job I wanted. I thought the second interview went really well and I passed the manual part with flying colours. At the end of the interview I was told I would hear from them early next week (this week). It is now Sunday and I ve heard nothing. If this was happening to you what would you be thinking? My first thoughts is that I ve been given a bad reference but if I was then surely a simple email saying I was... After Second Interview You Hear Nothing...what Would Be Your Thoughts
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/ptsd-and-parenting.63338/

Hi There. I'm New Here

Hello everyone. I thought I would join and introduce myself after a long time denying my new "official" PTSD diagnosis (and depression) and finally committing to this healing journey. It s still difficult for me to say aloud, but I m a survivor of CSA, child abuse, and multiple sexual assaults (military and non), with the most recent incident a little over 10 years ago. After several years of running away from everything, major denial, and increasing symptoms, I finally reached out and... Konnichiwa
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/hi-there-im-new-here.63337/

After Second Interview You Hear Nothing...what Would Be Your Thoughts

Hello everyone. I thought I would join and introduce myself after a long time denying my new "official" PTSD diagnosis (and depression) and finally committing to this healing journey. It s still difficult for me to say aloud, but I m a survivor of CSA, child abuse, and multiple sexual assaults (military and non), with the most recent incident a little over 10 years ago. After several years of running away from everything, major denial, and increasing symptoms, I finally reached out and... Konnichiwa
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/after-second-interview-you-hear-nothing-what-would-be-your-thoughts.63336/

Konnichiwa

Hello everyone. I thought I would join and introduce myself after a long time denying my new "official" PTSD diagnosis (and depression) and finally committing to this healing journey. It s still difficult for me to say aloud, but I m a survivor of CSA, child abuse, and multiple sexual assaults (military and non), with the most recent incident a little over 10 years ago. After several years of running away from everything, major denial, and increasing symptoms, I finally reached out and... Konnichiwa
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/konnichiwa.63335/

Problem With Online Status Button

I have unchecked the online status button but I m still showing with green on my avatar. I have also requested my recent viewing activity not to be shown but it s still showing. I ve tried checking and uncheckig several times and it doesn t change.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/problem-with-online-status-button.63334/

"couldn't Establish A Secure Connection"

Fact on anti-depressants are anything but what pharmaceutical companies have led you to believe for all these decades. Science is quite honestly really opening quite the shit storm surrounding pills and their effectiveness. I would honestly recommend everyone read this story and look at the evidence. Antidepressants are very hit-and-miss Science of antidepressants based on backward facts Some scientists say they don’t work Hidden side-effects Most linked to weight... Antidepressants: 10 Shocking Studies Everyone Should Know
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/couldnt-establish-a-secure-connection.48909/

Are You Familiar With The Top Ten Distorted Cognitions?

Today was day 1 of "real" trauma therapy. After a year of dialectical behavioral therapy, learning coping skills to keep me from going off the deep end and staying there or worse, I m finally deemed as stable enough by my treatment team to do trauma therapy. The six weeks its taken to do the pre-trauma therapy stuff, get a coping process in place, friends/family/professional supports, has been torture in and of itself. After doing a guided imagery meditation, that was more like hypnosis, I... Trauma Therapy: Seeking Some Support
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/are-you-familiar-with-the-top-ten-distorted-cognitions.57711/

I'm Not Ok

"Is it me?" Let me throw out some details and Id appreciate feedback. I have been seeing my therapist for 4 years and like any relationship, we ve had our issues. I want to highlight some to see if they are beyond what a client should endure 1. Early on, I completely dissociated and left my body. She sent me back to work with the direction to email her and let her know how I m doing. I was out of whack that entire week as nothing like that had ever happened to me before. I could have used... Input On Therapist
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/im-not-ok.63331/

My Ptsd From Someone Else's Perspective

Until @chant2012 mentioned it in my diary earlier today I have never heard of "Maladaptive Daydreaming" but I have serious problems with maladapative daydreaming, and whilst writing this post I see someone else has mentioned it before. I also have intrusive thoughts and distorted cognitions as well. How could I have never heard of it? Do you have problems with it? What do you do to work to fix yourself?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/my-ptsd-from-someone-elses-perspective.63326/

Seeing A Pale Reflection Of Someone You Hate | In The Mirror

Until @chant2012 mentioned it in my diary earlier today I have never heard of "Maladaptive Daydreaming" but I have serious problems with maladapative daydreaming, and whilst writing this post I see someone else has mentioned it before. I also have intrusive thoughts and distorted cognitions as well. How could I have never heard of it? Do you have problems with it? What do you do to work to fix yourself?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/seeing-a-pale-reflection-of-someone-you-hate-in-the-mirror.63327/

Constant Search For Affirmation

Until @chant2012 mentioned it in my diary earlier today I have never heard of "Maladaptive Daydreaming" but I have serious problems with maladapative daydreaming, and whilst writing this post I see someone else has mentioned it before. I also have intrusive thoughts and distorted cognitions as well. How could I have never heard of it? Do you have problems with it? What do you do to work to fix yourself?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/constant-search-for-affirmation.63328/

I Hate It!

Until @chant2012 mentioned it in my diary earlier today I have never heard of "Maladaptive Daydreaming" but I have serious problems with maladapative daydreaming, and whilst writing this post I see someone else has mentioned it before. I also have intrusive thoughts and distorted cognitions as well. How could I have never heard of it? Do you have problems with it? What do you do to work to fix yourself?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-hate-it.63330/

Wisdom Teeth Advice

Until @chant2012 mentioned it in my diary earlier today I have never heard of "Maladaptive Daydreaming" but I have serious problems with maladapative daydreaming, and whilst writing this post I see someone else has mentioned it before. I also have intrusive thoughts and distorted cognitions as well. How could I have never heard of it? Do you have problems with it? What do you do to work to fix yourself?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/wisdom-teeth-advice.63329/

Trauma Therapy: Seeking Some Support

I ve screwed up so badly today and I m completely in the wrong this time, I m taking responsibility for my actions. I had another really bad freak out (I get them about once every 1 or 2 months) and my girlfriend happened to be the one who was there when it happened. As a side note, my parents had invited me over for dinner tonight, more on this in a second.. So the past few days my mood and outlook on people and life in general has been plummeting extremely quickly once again and I... Ptsd Is Ruining My Relationship With Everyone
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/trauma-therapy-seeking-some-support.63325/

Coming Up For Air

I ve screwed up so badly today and I m completely in the wrong this time, I m taking responsibility for my actions. I had another really bad freak out (I get them about once every 1 or 2 months) and my girlfriend happened to be the one who was there when it happened. As a side note, my parents had invited me over for dinner tonight, more on this in a second.. So the past few days my mood and outlook on people and life in general has been plummeting extremely quickly once again and I... Ptsd Is Ruining My Relationship With Everyone
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/coming-up-for-air.63323/

Ptsd Is Ruining My Relationship With Everyone

I ve screwed up so badly today and I m completely in the wrong this time, I m taking responsibility for my actions. I had another really bad freak out (I get them about once every 1 or 2 months) and my girlfriend happened to be the one who was there when it happened. As a side note, my parents had invited me over for dinner tonight, more on this in a second.. So the past few days my mood and outlook on people and life in general has been plummeting extremely quickly once again and I... Ptsd Is Ruining My Relationship With Everyone
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/ptsd-is-ruining-my-relationship-with-everyone.63324/

Broken Pipe And Panic Attack

Okay so some of you will know me from over a year ago when my delayed onset PTSD was diagnosed after I had a nervous break down after I got assaulted at work which brought my childhood trauma crashing down on me. My partner didn t know how to deal with me, we became so distant and I ended up in a psychiatric unit. I then dissapeared off the face of the earth. I am writing this now from a refuge after being given a book to read to help me understand what has happened to me in the last year.... Escaping Dv
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/broken-pipe-and-panic-attack.63322/

Donations 2016

Okay so some of you will know me from over a year ago when my delayed onset PTSD was diagnosed after I had a nervous break down after I got assaulted at work which brought my childhood trauma crashing down on me. My partner didn t know how to deal with me, we became so distant and I ended up in a psychiatric unit. I then dissapeared off the face of the earth. I am writing this now from a refuge after being given a book to read to help me understand what has happened to me in the last year.... Escaping Dv
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/donations-2016.60950/

Input On Therapist

There is another thread on how to know when you are in crisis. My question is different. When I m in crisis, I know. But I m not sure how to define it for anyone else. Someone asked me a very reasonable question today: when I say I am in crisis, what do I mean? And what can others do that helps me? I m surprised at how hard it is to put it into words. I think of recent crises and what has been happening, and still can t find words. There will be different answers here, no doubt. I m... What Exactly Is A Crisis?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/input-on-therapist.63321/

Hello

Until @chant2012 mentioned it in my diary earlier today I have never heard of "Maladaptive Daydreaming" but I have serious problems with maladapative daydreaming, and whilst writing this post I see someone else has mentioned it before. I also have intrusive thoughts and distorted cognitions as well. How could I have never heard of it? Do you have problems with it? What do you do to work to fix yourself?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/hello.63319/

Isolation Vs Dissociation

Until @chant2012 mentioned it in my diary earlier today I have never heard of "Maladaptive Daydreaming" but I have serious problems with maladapative daydreaming, and whilst writing this post I see someone else has mentioned it before. I also have intrusive thoughts and distorted cognitions as well. How could I have never heard of it? Do you have problems with it? What do you do to work to fix yourself?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/isolation-vs-dissociation.63320/

Abusive Partner, I'm Desperate To Escape

This is a silly game for all of us to connect whom usually disconnect. I will start with a word. The next person to post must post the first word that comes to mind (articles and prepositions do not count: the, a, an, of, etc.). The next person looks at the last post, posts their first word association, and so on. Please post your word at the end of your post so that this is the last word the next person reads and their association can be clear! The fun of the game is getting from... A Turn Away From Dissociation: The Association Thread
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/abusive-partner-im-desperate-to-escape.63318/

Deleted Thread

This is a silly game for all of us to connect whom usually disconnect. I will start with a word. The next person to post must post the first word that comes to mind (articles and prepositions do not count: the, a, an, of, etc.). The next person looks at the last post, posts their first word association, and so on. Please post your word at the end of your post so that this is the last word the next person reads and their association can be clear! The fun of the game is getting from... A Turn Away From Dissociation: The Association Thread
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/deleted-thread.63317/

Work: How To React?

This has been going round in my head for days and I m getting nowhere. I have an interview next week for my manager s job position. I m currently a supervisor. I thought I had a pretty good chance- from a technical viewpoint I have masses more experience than any of the other applicants. However, last week I got pulled aside by a senior manager- one of the two who will be taking the interview, who told me I have to work on my people skills. Among other points he said if it weren t for my... Upcoming Interview, Interviewer Believes I Have Issues With People Skills.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/work-how-to-react.63317/

Divorce

I can t do this in less than 200 words or all in one go either so here is a thread dedicated to the woman who traumatised me, the woman who gave birth to me. The woman who sexually, emotionally and physically abused her own, only child. Dear mum, What you done to me ruined at least the first thirty two years of my life. Well, its a start....
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/divorce.63316/

Have You Told Your Abuser(s) You Have Ptsd?

I ve been seeing my therapist for a couple of years and we re about to start doing "the deeper work" related to my trauma. I have sometimes dissociated badly during sessions when we start to touch into more difficult things, so we recently had a conversation about how we do the trauma work and manage my tendency to dissociate and reduce potential fall-out. She talked about finding ways to help me to feel safe in my body and suggested I practise doing body scans and to try to find positions... Using Soft Toys To Help Healing?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/have-you-told-your-abuser-s-you-have-ptsd.55985/

Struggles

This is something I ve been struggling with from time to time. I was in an emotionally abusive marriage for over 20 years. I was diagnosed with PTSD from emotionally abusive relationships a few years ago. So I ve been in emotionally abusive relationships my entire life thinking it was normal. Now I know it s not normal and am on the road to healing. I found out I have PTSD during marriage counseling. We went to counseling because my now ex-husband went into a rage when he found out my best... Struggles
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/struggles.63315/