MyPTSD

Saturday, 2 July 2016

I'm Not Ok

"Is it me?" Let me throw out some details and Id appreciate feedback. I have been seeing my therapist for 4 years and like any relationship, we ve had our issues. I want to highlight some to see if they are beyond what a client should endure 1. Early on, I completely dissociated and left my body. She sent me back to work with the direction to email her and let her know how I m doing. I was out of whack that entire week as nothing like that had ever happened to me before. I could have used... Input On Therapist
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/im-not-ok.63331/

My Ptsd From Someone Else's Perspective

Until @chant2012 mentioned it in my diary earlier today I have never heard of "Maladaptive Daydreaming" but I have serious problems with maladapative daydreaming, and whilst writing this post I see someone else has mentioned it before. I also have intrusive thoughts and distorted cognitions as well. How could I have never heard of it? Do you have problems with it? What do you do to work to fix yourself?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/my-ptsd-from-someone-elses-perspective.63326/

Seeing A Pale Reflection Of Someone You Hate | In The Mirror

Constant Search For Affirmation

I Hate It!

Wisdom Teeth Advice

Trauma Therapy: Seeking Some Support

I ve screwed up so badly today and I m completely in the wrong this time, I m taking responsibility for my actions. I had another really bad freak out (I get them about once every 1 or 2 months) and my girlfriend happened to be the one who was there when it happened. As a side note, my parents had invited me over for dinner tonight, more on this in a second.. So the past few days my mood and outlook on people and life in general has been plummeting extremely quickly once again and I... Ptsd Is Ruining My Relationship With Everyone
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/trauma-therapy-seeking-some-support.63325/

Coming Up For Air

Ptsd Is Ruining My Relationship With Everyone

Broken Pipe And Panic Attack

Okay so some of you will know me from over a year ago when my delayed onset PTSD was diagnosed after I had a nervous break down after I got assaulted at work which brought my childhood trauma crashing down on me. My partner didn t know how to deal with me, we became so distant and I ended up in a psychiatric unit. I then dissapeared off the face of the earth. I am writing this now from a refuge after being given a book to read to help me understand what has happened to me in the last year.... Escaping Dv
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/broken-pipe-and-panic-attack.63322/

Donations 2016

Input On Therapist

There is another thread on how to know when you are in crisis. My question is different. When I m in crisis, I know. But I m not sure how to define it for anyone else. Someone asked me a very reasonable question today: when I say I am in crisis, what do I mean? And what can others do that helps me? I m surprised at how hard it is to put it into words. I think of recent crises and what has been happening, and still can t find words. There will be different answers here, no doubt. I m... What Exactly Is A Crisis?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/input-on-therapist.63321/

Hello

Isolation Vs Dissociation

Abusive Partner, I'm Desperate To Escape

This is a silly game for all of us to connect whom usually disconnect. I will start with a word. The next person to post must post the first word that comes to mind (articles and prepositions do not count: the, a, an, of, etc.). The next person looks at the last post, posts their first word association, and so on. Please post your word at the end of your post so that this is the last word the next person reads and their association can be clear! The fun of the game is getting from... A Turn Away From Dissociation: The Association Thread
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/abusive-partner-im-desperate-to-escape.63318/

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Work: How To React?

This has been going round in my head for days and I m getting nowhere. I have an interview next week for my manager s job position. I m currently a supervisor. I thought I had a pretty good chance- from a technical viewpoint I have masses more experience than any of the other applicants. However, last week I got pulled aside by a senior manager- one of the two who will be taking the interview, who told me I have to work on my people skills. Among other points he said if it weren t for my... Upcoming Interview, Interviewer Believes I Have Issues With People Skills.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/work-how-to-react.63317/

Divorce

I can t do this in less than 200 words or all in one go either so here is a thread dedicated to the woman who traumatised me, the woman who gave birth to me. The woman who sexually, emotionally and physically abused her own, only child. Dear mum, What you done to me ruined at least the first thirty two years of my life. Well, its a start....
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/divorce.63316/

Have You Told Your Abuser(s) You Have Ptsd?

I ve been seeing my therapist for a couple of years and we re about to start doing "the deeper work" related to my trauma. I have sometimes dissociated badly during sessions when we start to touch into more difficult things, so we recently had a conversation about how we do the trauma work and manage my tendency to dissociate and reduce potential fall-out. She talked about finding ways to help me to feel safe in my body and suggested I practise doing body scans and to try to find positions... Using Soft Toys To Help Healing?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/have-you-told-your-abuser-s-you-have-ptsd.55985/

Struggles

This is something I ve been struggling with from time to time. I was in an emotionally abusive marriage for over 20 years. I was diagnosed with PTSD from emotionally abusive relationships a few years ago. So I ve been in emotionally abusive relationships my entire life thinking it was normal. Now I know it s not normal and am on the road to healing. I found out I have PTSD during marriage counseling. We went to counseling because my now ex-husband went into a rage when he found out my best... Struggles
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/struggles.63315/

Is Is Isolation Or Is It Over?

I ve seen this on other forums and thought I d start one here, just 5 things that are on your mind today, can be totally random, and they don t have to be questions, just 5 things you re thinking today. For example: 1. The room is way too hot. 2. I m thirsty. 3. I miss having a pet. 4. Still don t understand how tv works. 5. I think I ll start a new thread.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/is-is-isolation-or-is-it-over.63314/

Upcoming Interview, Interviewer Believes I Have Issues With People Skills.

Do You Have Maladaptive Daydreaming?

Constant Head Pressure - Feels Like My Head Is Going To Explode

Last year I paid for premium update and I want to continue it. My problem is I don t have that email account any more. In fact I don t have any right now because my phone is as useful as a rock. I will update my email as soon as I get one. How can I find out when I need to renew my membership? Can I even do it without a valid email account?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/constant-head-pressure-feels-like-my-head-is-going-to-explode.1559/

I Feel So Lost.

have been hurting from the elbow to my wrist since december and after trying ibuprophin , ruling out tendonitis and possibility of tennis elbow. I got diagnosed with the start of fibro today. Im ok about it, had discussed it as a possibility with my T since my nerves were very active before i got medicated for anxiety. Was hoping this would hit me later in life, not now, trying lyrica to see if it keeps it down to a dull throb for me.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-feel-so-lost.63309/

Friday, 1 July 2016

Enaila's Diary

So this is a forum game I didn t see on here. I post 6 random letters and the next poster makes a real sentence that would make sense out of them then leave 6 more for the jext poster and so on. Example: IAOFTD I am out for the day. Make sense? Ok, here are my 6 random letters, lets see how far we can take this. TJAYFN
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/enailas-diary.63308/

Hoping To Find Support And Encouragement

Months ago I got on a waiting list for low income apartments. I thought they would still be expensive as most of the apartments I looked at had the utilities seperate from rent. One replied back recently, and it turns out this one has utilities included in rent. It also is the one that my grandparents want me in. I do tend to obsess over money giving that is how I was raised. I ve decided to loosen up a little, there is nothing major, like a house, that I ll be able to save for. I might as... New Apartment Possibility
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/hoping-to-find-support-and-encouragement.63307/