MyPTSD: 2017

Tuesday, 7 February 2017

Waiting

Sitting in mental health facility awaiting assessment. Nerves completely on edge!! Feeling like a complete failure. Why can t i just move on!!!!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/waiting.70181/

Hi, I wondered if anyone had any advice for me. I m going to search for a less expensive place to live, and I wondered if I should tell landlords about my service animals up front or just move in with them. My 2 cats, 10 and 12 years old, are ESAs and my dog is a service animal. My fear is that they will just cross me off of the list if I do that. Does anyone have any experience with this? It ll be my first time looking for a place with my animals. Thank you, Traci I wasn t sure which... Housing Search With Service Animals
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/blaming-yourself.70178/

High Pitch Ringing In Ears Before I Have Sleep Paralysis

Can You Suggest Books For Me?

With a married (but separated) couple - one inebriated after 2 bottles of wine and the other completely sober? Because one was drunk and sex occurs, does that automatically mean sexual assault? Or do I need to share more information? I have had drunken regrettable sex and more "black and white" drunken/sober rapes, but a recent experience is leaving me umm ...confused and a multitude of other emotions I am trying to avoid. T says it was sexual assault, but I do not want to believe her.... Does Alcohol Always Mean Lack Of Consent?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/can-you-suggest-books-for-me.70177/

So Upset With My Therapist And Don't Know What To Do

If You Have C-ptsd/derealization For 3 Years,is It Classed As Chronic?

Do You Sleep With Weapons?

He committed Suicide. I don t know what I m going to do now.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/do-you-sleep-with-weapons.70174/

Diagnosis From Some....

I ve been trying so hard for the last 2 weeks to swim against this Depression and SI and try and hold on. It s been 2 weeks between sessions with my T and I really don t want to disappoint her tomorrow by going backwards. In these last few weeks I have lost a friend and my church and struggling with some self-harm/acting out issues and then today (and I know this sounds petty but it really hurt) I found out someone I thought was a good friend is pregnant but found out through church... Feeling Lost Again
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/diagnosis-from-some.70172/

Diagnosis From Some

Hearing Loss

I went through a period where I was very angry with God. I m a Christian and thought it was sacrilegious to be angry with the big guy. I wanted to know why he didn t protect me. Why are some kids spared from Abuse and others forced to endure it. He raped me in the office of the church during preschool. Why didn t God send a lightening bolt to stop him? I guess I still have a little bit of anger towards God. Does anyone else feel angry at Him?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/hearing-loss.70171/

I Have Cut My Narssisist Dad Off.

And gone are the three f*cking fabulous night s of blue cheese and sleep as the penny pinching prison burn returns along with the usual relentless insomnia. Initially I get angry shakes, cry and wanna break shit, secondly I m suffocated by my darkest fears which at the moment mostly seem to revolve around my next police interview looming on the 21st of this month. I wanna do this interview about as much as I wanna f*ck Donald trump cos there s nothing I want less than to be responsible for... Ideas Of An Insomniac
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-have-cut-my-narssisist-dad-off.70168/

So, Is This Isolating? Question About Drinking

Monday, 6 February 2017

Did You Believe Your Abuse Was Normal?

So... recent research seems to indicate that repeated exposure to blasts (rockets, IED. mortars) causes damage to the sleep centres of the brain. My vet needs sleeping tablets to get any sleep at all. But the civilian doctors - with no experience of treating patients suffering from the aftereffects of blast injuries - keep telling him he shouldn t take them all the time. So then he stops taking them and literally does not sleep for 48 - 72 hours before I force him to take the sleeping... Insomnia
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/did-you-believe-your-abuse-was-normal.70165/

Not Suicidal... Just Wanting To Disappear...

Assault On A Registered Sex Offender

I hate going to sleep. Its when the flashbacks hit hard, and I am in a half awake state with no defenses..... Any solutions?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/assault-on-a-registered-sex-offender.43330/

Medical Assault

I hate going to sleep. Its when the flashbacks hit hard, and I am in a half awake state with no defenses..... Any solutions?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/medical-assault.59747/

They Tried To Bully Me Into Suicide

I hate going to sleep. Its when the flashbacks hit hard, and I am in a half awake state with no defenses..... Any solutions?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/they-tried-to-bully-me-into-suicide.70162/

Flashbacks Are The Worst Trying To Fall Asleep

I hate going to sleep. Its when the flashbacks hit hard, and I am in a half awake state with no defenses..... Any solutions?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/flashbacks-are-the-worst-trying-to-fall-asleep.70163/

Increased Anxiety/ Sensory Overload At Adult Coloring Books?

I was wondering about Dissociative Identity Disorder / (aka Multiple Personality Disorder) and the woman known as the Troops for Truddi Chase. have some questions, .... but let me start by saying this; I do not have the Diagnosis of D.I.D. (my psych records reflect Fragmented Personality Disorder instead) and secondly, my understanding of the diagnosis is limited and I do not want to offend anyone with my ignorance of D.I.D. First, can anyone tell me if the Story about Truddi Chase was... D.i.d. And The Troops For Truddi Chase: When Rabbit Howls
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/increased-anxiety-sensory-overload-at-adult-coloring-books.70161/

Would You Betray Your Own Child?

Hello guys, as we all know good nutrition is important for our mental and physical health but our symptoms often make it hard to fix some food. That is why I would like to start a collection of recipes that are healthy and easy to make without too much effort- so that we can even prepare them when we re down and triggered by our symptoms. Here s my first suggestion: Paprika Peppers with cream cheese (for 2 persons) Ingredients: 2 big paprika peppers (whatever colour) 200 g... Cooking And Ptsd - How To Make It Easy
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/would-you-betray-your-own-child.70157/

Strange Day

Struggling With Addictive Personality

Staring At The Ceiling And Trying To Cope

Do any of you lie about your Suicidal ideation to your T? I am doing it all the time right now, because I feel like I cannot admit to where I am really at. We have been working so hard and making progress, but it is too much right now. I am getting suicidal and my urges to self-harm are increasing. I am scared to admit it, because I have made so much progress - and we will have to stop to take a break for safety. And that sucks and is disappointing. I m worried he will see this as a... Lying About S/i
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/staring-at-the-ceiling-and-trying-to-cope.70152/

Affective Circuit Resetting

This May Sound Silly But I Wasn't Expecting Trauma Therapy To Hurt This Much.

My trauma therapist today said she wants to start EMDR, and encouraged me to do some research. I am wondering what others experiences are, what can I expect?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/this-may-sound-silly-but-i-wasnt-expecting-trauma-therapy-to-hurt-this-much.50792/

Blurred Vision After Session With T

Csa By Teacher

What Was Your Experience With Emdr?

My Name Should Be Lettinggoofhope Right Now...

I don t know if anyone else feels this. Just lately I feel I am struggling more and more to maintain friendships on various levels. Here I often go into chat and follow the conversations but am too scared to join in for fear of not being wanted there. I often feel I am in the way or spoiling the conversation for others. I struggle greatly with reaching out for help. I am ashamed of myself if I am honest as I have been reading through the forums here, listening and learning more about... Isolation, Paranoia And Withdrawal
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/my-name-should-be-lettinggoofhope-right-now.66141/

Isolation, Paranoia And Withdrawal

Dissertation Participants Needed: How Do You Cope With Stress In Your Everyday Life?

So today was terrible. I feel totally out of control. I need a week off. I wish I could not go to the hospital to get a week off. I DO NOT NEED to be in a hospital. I don t wanna die per se, just disappear... isolate. I need f*cking space. But i also need out of my own head. So... I know what I need to do, and that s self-care, blah, blah. Since I HAVE to be at work tomorrow, despite a superbly, life crushingly, shitty day, I m looking for movie suggestions that are light-hardhearted, I... Movie/show Suggestions? For An Extra Sh*tty Day?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/dissertation-participants-needed-how-do-you-cope-with-stress-in-your-everyday-life.70131/

I Hate My Mind

Movie/show Suggestions? For An Extra Sh*tty Day?

So today was terrible. I feel totally out of control. I need a week off. I wish I could not go to the hospital to get a week off. I DO NOT NEED to be in a hospital. I don t wanna die per se, just disappear... isolate. I need f*cking space. But i also need out of my own head. So... I know what I need to do, and that s self-care, blah, blah. Since I HAVE to be at work tomorrow, despite a superbly, life crushingly, shitty day, I m looking for movie suggestions that are light-hardhearted, I... Movie/show Suggestions? For An Extra Sh*tty Day?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/movie-show-suggestions-for-an-extra-sh-tty-day.70147/

While Searching For A Ptsd Service Dog - Found At Amazon

After nearly two years with my love, where he has always been hopeful, trying and doing everything he could, telling me he loved me more than anything, he has now expressed that he has lost hope that we can be together. He says I don t let him calm down, don t give him space when he needs to (after he s attacked me and been very unkind.) I have done my very best to work on my patience, but I do relapse into calling him or writing him when he said he needs to calm down, or missing the boat... Can This Be Saved? Trust Has Been Broken.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/while-searching-for-a-ptsd-service-dog-found-at-amazon.70144/

My Trauma Therapist Wants To Begin Emdr

Does Ptsd Ever Go Away? Do Triggers Ever Stop? I Want To See My Family

I m in a close connection (not romantic) with a male friend. Back in November 2016, he returned after a sudden absence (the original departure aggravated trust and abandonment issues) to tell me that he has a terminal illness. A short time after I read the email, I had a panic attack. With him, I had them a lot at the beginning and with being able to trust and consistency, I managed these worries. What happened that night was different. I experienced the feeling of multiple panic... Would This Be Ptsd Or Grief?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/does-ptsd-ever-go-away-do-triggers-ever-stop-i-want-to-see-my-family.70142/

Nervous About Chest Exam After Airport Experience.

I m in a close connection (not romantic) with a male friend. Back in November 2016, he returned after a sudden absence (the original departure aggravated trust and abandonment issues) to tell me that he has a terminal illness. A short time after I read the email, I had a panic attack. With him, I had them a lot at the beginning and with being able to trust and consistency, I managed these worries. What happened that night was different. I experienced the feeling of multiple panic... Would This Be Ptsd Or Grief?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/nervous-about-chest-exam-after-airport-experience.70143/

Ocd, Anxiety, Guilt And Shame

Daytime Nightmares Whilst Awake

Hello I have suffered from PTSD since my aunt died very tragically from cancer several years ago. I keep feeling trapped in that evil time and I keep feeling like its only just happened,it happened several years ago in January and whenever the shitty weather is the same and it s a Monday,it feels like it s only the day after she died because that was a shitty cold white sky winter day with rain and my mum was so devastated and had to have Valium to help her crying. And now mums I ll and... Unbearable Flashbacks Of Aunty s Death Comes Back And I m In Pain
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/daytime-nightmares-whilst-awake.70141/

Lying About S/i

I m seeing a new therapist for the first time tomorrow, she s a trauma therapist. I ve never worked with a trauma T before, any advice? What should I expect? What have your experiences been?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/lying-about-s-i.70139/

Progress For Chitoshi Yesterday!

Unbearable Flashbacks Of Aunty's Death Comes Back And I'm In Pain

5 Things I'm Thinking Today

My husband and I were sitting at our dinner table and he just told me, very seriously and matter-of-factly, that he though it was best if I killed myself. When I got upset, he said that he just wants the what s best for me and is just thinking about me and how much I struggle. He said that he doesn t think I will ever get better or get over the Abuse from my childhood and that maybe it would be better to start over with a new life. I am really upset right now. I thought I was making... Is He Right?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/5-things-im-thinking-today.60436/

First Day Back

Not Sure About Going To Exercise Class

Thoughts About Trauma

So I ve been in PT for sciatica and somehow ended up with something worse, sprained ribs on my left side. (I m pretty sure it was a side plank exercise that did this.) This has really done me in. TMJ is acting up again plus I ve got some undiagnosed pain in my wrist and hand. All are worse than the sciatica, because they re constant pains. The way I learned to manage my TMJ pain is to keep my focus on my jaw and will it to relax. Repeat, repeat, repeat, ad nauseum, during most conscious... Mental Exercises To Help Sprains?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/thoughts-about-trauma.70130/