Lack Of Discipline? Need Someone To Kick Me?

So my husband has PTSD and I do not have PTSD, but I had a difficult birth, than a good one and than another difficult one after which my doctor adviced me not to have any more children. Well... I have my hands full with the children I have and money is tight. We are not planning to add to our family... but ever since I had the crazy idea of rolling the dice once more. I wrote another thread (nickname Crystal1234) which has to be approved by a mod yet about my husband painting an beautiful... When Peace And Quiet Is Just Plain Old Boringquitter
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/lack-of-discipline-need-someone-to-kick-me.67721/