Trying

I don t know how to start this and I m not saying this to defend myself.. I m trying to work on not lying, but I sometimes find it hard, so I ll just say it as is. Due to my past, I saw lying as a way to stay safe and survive. If I told the truth(that they don t want to hear), I knew I d get beaten up and if I was caught lying then even worse. So I learned how to lie very well. Of course starting out, it was very obvious I was lying and my abuser choked me so hard that it left a bruise on... Compulsive Lying
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