My Car Accident

So, here I am. I ve tried writing one of these so many times, but the fact is that I am too ashamed of my own trauma to confront it myself -- never mind share it with the entire world (most of the time). I m not ashamed because I was overly dehumanized by my trauma(s), but because I sometimes really truly believe that the type of trauma that I went through does not warrant the severity of my symptoms. I want to leave this a bit open to you guys, so that you can ask questions, and help me... The Black Box
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/my-car-accident.62624/

Does Anyone Has A Brain Meltdown And Episodes After Therapy?

So, here I am. I ve tried writing one of these so many times, but the fact is that I am too ashamed of my own trauma to confront it myself -- never mind share it with the entire world (most of the time). I m not ashamed because I was overly dehumanized by my trauma(s), but because I sometimes really truly believe that the type of trauma that I went through does not warrant the severity of my symptoms. I want to leave this a bit open to you guys, so that you can ask questions, and help me... The Black Box
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/does-anyone-has-a-brain-meltdown-and-episodes-after-therapy.65178/

The Black Box

So, here I am. I ve tried writing one of these so many times, but the fact is that I am too ashamed of my own trauma to confront it myself -- never mind share it with the entire world (most of the time). I m not ashamed because I was overly dehumanized by my trauma(s), but because I sometimes really truly believe that the type of trauma that I went through does not warrant the severity of my symptoms. I want to leave this a bit open to you guys, so that you can ask questions, and help me... The Black Box
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/the-black-box.65179/

I Got The Highest Mark Possible For My Individual Presentation!

One of my good friends is married. Her husband really creeps me out. When we are in a group, he always gives me more attention than anyone else, including his wife; and if we are in a group and i am drinking and i don t want to drink anymore because I am already pretty drunk, he says "why not? I ll buy you another drink. Keep going." One night, a group of us were at my friend s house and I was drunk. I was sitting on the floor and joking about how i didn t want to stand up. He picked me up... I Really Don t Know If I Should Say Something
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-got-the-highest-mark-possible-for-my-individual-presentation.65174/

Seriously Struggling Partner Of Ptsd Boyfriend

One of my good friends is married. Her husband really creeps me out. When we are in a group, he always gives me more attention than anyone else, including his wife; and if we are in a group and i am drinking and i don t want to drink anymore because I am already pretty drunk, he says "why not? I ll buy you another drink. Keep going." One night, a group of us were at my friend s house and I was drunk. I was sitting on the floor and joking about how i didn t want to stand up. He picked me up... I Really Don t Know If I Should Say Something
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/seriously-struggling-partner-of-ptsd-boyfriend.65173/

I Was Raped By One Of My Best Friends

This is a silly game for all of us to connect whom usually disconnect. I will start with a word. The next person to post must post the first word that comes to mind (articles and prepositions do not count: the, a, an, of, etc.). The next person looks at the last post, posts their first word association, and so on. Please post your word at the end of your post so that this is the last word the next person reads and their association can be clear! The fun of the game is getting from... A Turn Away From Dissociation: The Association Thread
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-was-raped-by-one-of-my-best-friends.45449/

Wife Of Army Vet With Ptsd

This is a silly game for all of us to connect whom usually disconnect. I will start with a word. The next person to post must post the first word that comes to mind (articles and prepositions do not count: the, a, an, of, etc.). The next person looks at the last post, posts their first word association, and so on. Please post your word at the end of your post so that this is the last word the next person reads and their association can be clear! The fun of the game is getting from... A Turn Away From Dissociation: The Association Thread
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/wife-of-army-vet-with-ptsd.65172/

You Know You've Been Dissociating/being Absent Minded When...

My veteran and I were together for 2.5 years. This will be out 3rd break up. He recently started therapy at the end of July. I told him he needs to focus on recovery and we will put our relationship aside for now. We haven t talked much at all, I told him about a few weeks ago that it s okay for him to reach out so I know his heart is still with me, he responded back that he was happier not having been with me. I ignored the text because I thought maybe he was lashing out. Last night I... The Start Of Therapy Breakup
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/you-know-youve-been-dissociating-being-absent-minded-when.57432/

Could Ptsd Trigger Early Cognitive Impairment In Some World Trade Center Responders?

Hello....so as some of you may know, my s/o has decided to take his annual "break". This started on the 14th of August. So things are progressing slowly, as usual. Well, I m starting to feel used. I have a feeling he feels guilty for pulling away, like normal...but there are different circumstances this time. Really, it feels selfish. Basically that he wants his break....and a break from his responsibilities, but he expects (to a certain extent) for me to maintain all of my responsibilities.... Please Help Me Clear My Thoughts To Do The Right Thing...
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/could-ptsd-trigger-early-cognitive-impairment-in-some-world-trade-center-responders.65167/

Prozasin

Hello....so as some of you may know, my s/o has decided to take his annual "break". This started on the 14th of August. So things are progressing slowly, as usual. Well, I m starting to feel used. I have a feeling he feels guilty for pulling away, like normal...but there are different circumstances this time. Really, it feels selfish. Basically that he wants his break....and a break from his responsibilities, but he expects (to a certain extent) for me to maintain all of my responsibilities.... Please Help Me Clear My Thoughts To Do The Right Thing...
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/prozasin.65169/

Anyone Up To Talking Suicide?

Hello....so as some of you may know, my s/o has decided to take his annual "break". This started on the 14th of August. So things are progressing slowly, as usual. Well, I m starting to feel used. I have a feeling he feels guilty for pulling away, like normal...but there are different circumstances this time. Really, it feels selfish. Basically that he wants his break....and a break from his responsibilities, but he expects (to a certain extent) for me to maintain all of my responsibilities.... Please Help Me Clear My Thoughts To Do The Right Thing...
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/anyone-up-to-talking-suicide.65166/

Every Damn Thing Sounds Like Criticism These Days

Hello....so as some of you may know, my s/o has decided to take his annual "break". This started on the 14th of August. So things are progressing slowly, as usual. Well, I m starting to feel used. I have a feeling he feels guilty for pulling away, like normal...but there are different circumstances this time. Really, it feels selfish. Basically that he wants his break....and a break from his responsibilities, but he expects (to a certain extent) for me to maintain all of my responsibilities.... Please Help Me Clear My Thoughts To Do The Right Thing...
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/every-damn-thing-sounds-like-criticism-these-days.65171/

Please Help Me Clear My Thoughts To Do The Right Thing...

Hello....so as some of you may know, my s/o has decided to take his annual "break". This started on the 14th of August. So things are progressing slowly, as usual. Well, I m starting to feel used. I have a feeling he feels guilty for pulling away, like normal...but there are different circumstances this time. Really, it feels selfish. Basically that he wants his break....and a break from his responsibilities, but he expects (to a certain extent) for me to maintain all of my responsibilities.... Please Help Me Clear My Thoughts To Do The Right Thing...
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/please-help-me-clear-my-thoughts-to-do-the-right-thing.65170/

Home Invasion Survived, Killed The Intruder, 15 Years Of Ptsd

I read threads about trauma bonding, Stockholm syndrome - still I m not sure if there is any excuse for me. I was 18 when we met and I stayed for 9 years of emotional and sexual Abuse At the time, people saw me as a stupid girl. I remember some guy telling me to cut my wrists lengthwise not horizontally if I really wanted to succeed at killing myself, Over 20 years ago - there will never be enough time to separate me from that time I was not able to have children because of that man I... Stupid Girl I Chose It
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/home-invasion-survived-killed-the-intruder-15-years-of-ptsd.65165/

Hi!!

A thread specifically for those moments we all have where we dissociate, or are simply being absent minded. (not sure if those are the same thing...). You know you ve been dissociating / absent minded when... ...you cant remember what you said a minute ago. ...you cant remember what someone else said a minute ago. ...you know what the conversation is about, but it doesn t fully register and you still have to ask what the conversation is about. ...you manage to confuse everyone in the... You Know You ve Been Dissociating/being Absent Minded When...
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/hi.65164/

How To Deal With The Mental Stuff Together With "real" Medical Problems??

A study published this week examines the link between PTSD, cognitive impairment and dementia. Study was done on emergency responders to the World Trade Centre, 9/11/2001. The major findings are: 12.8 percent of responders had scores indicating cognitive impairment, and 1.2 percent had scores that suggested possible dementia Both MDD... Ptsd Linked To Cognitive Impairment & Dementia
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/how-to-deal-with-the-mental-stuff-together-with-real-medical-problems.60776/

Pushing My Wife Away

A study published this week examines the link between PTSD, cognitive impairment and dementia. Study was done on emergency responders to the World Trade Centre, 9/11/2001. The major findings are: 12.8 percent of responders had scores indicating cognitive impairment, and 1.2 percent had scores that suggested possible dementia Both MDD... Ptsd Linked To Cognitive Impairment & Dementia
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/pushing-my-wife-away.65161/

Two Different People

A study published this week examines the link between PTSD, cognitive impairment and dementia. Study was done on emergency responders to the World Trade Centre, 9/11/2001. The major findings are: 12.8 percent of responders had scores indicating cognitive impairment, and 1.2 percent had scores that suggested possible dementia Both MDD... Ptsd Linked To Cognitive Impairment & Dementia
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/two-different-people.63348/

Hospital

A study published this week examines the link between PTSD, cognitive impairment and dementia. Study was done on emergency responders to the World Trade Centre, 9/11/2001. The major findings are: 12.8 percent of responders had scores indicating cognitive impairment, and 1.2 percent had scores that suggested possible dementia Both MDD... Ptsd Linked To Cognitive Impairment & Dementia
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/hospital.65163/

Ptsd Linked To Cognitive Impairment & Dementia

A study published this week examines the link between PTSD, cognitive impairment and dementia. Study was done on emergency responders to the World Trade Centre, 9/11/2001. The major findings are: 12.8 percent of responders had scores indicating cognitive impairment, and 1.2 percent had scores that suggested possible dementia Both MDD... Ptsd Linked To Cognitive Impairment & Dementia
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/ptsd-linked-to-cognitive-impairment-dementia.65162/

How Psychopaths 'see' A Victim

Hi everyone. This probably isn t in the right section but here goes. Please know that I am not a troll and have legit things to say/ I have been lurking for quite some time and now want to share. Don t want to share too much about my Abuse yet (childhood and recent). New to trauma therapy. Anyway, I went to my T this morning. He wanted to do a guided meditation/relaxation session. Revealing and odd experience. It probably went on for 20 minutes, not sure. At one point he said, "Your... New - Scared To Post This (long - Sorry)
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/how-psychopaths-see-a-victim.57671/

How The "normal" World Sees Ptsd?

Hi everyone. This probably isn t in the right section but here goes. Please know that I am not a troll and have legit things to say/ I have been lurking for quite some time and now want to share. Don t want to share too much about my Abuse yet (childhood and recent). New to trauma therapy. Anyway, I went to my T this morning. He wanted to do a guided meditation/relaxation session. Revealing and odd experience. It probably went on for 20 minutes, not sure. At one point he said, "Your... New - Scared To Post This (long - Sorry)
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/how-the-normal-world-sees-ptsd.63221/

Sexual Abuse And The Sociopath...

Hi everyone. This probably isn t in the right section but here goes. Please know that I am not a troll and have legit things to say/ I have been lurking for quite some time and now want to share. Don t want to share too much about my Abuse yet (childhood and recent). New to trauma therapy. Anyway, I went to my T this morning. He wanted to do a guided meditation/relaxation session. Revealing and odd experience. It probably went on for 20 minutes, not sure. At one point he said, "Your... New - Scared To Post This (long - Sorry)
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/sexual-abuse-and-the-sociopath.34973/

Dissociation : Accept Ptsd. Deal With The Pain

This is a silly game for all of us to connect whom usually disconnect. I will start with a word. The next person to post must post the first word that comes to mind (articles and prepositions do not count: the, a, an, of, etc.). The next person looks at the last post, posts their first word association, and so on. Please post your word at the end of your post so that this is the last word the next person reads and their association can be clear! The fun of the game is getting from... A Turn Away From Dissociation: The Association Thread
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/dissociation-accept-ptsd-deal-with-the-pain.61552/

Adult Coloring Books

This is a silly game for all of us to connect whom usually disconnect. I will start with a word. The next person to post must post the first word that comes to mind (articles and prepositions do not count: the, a, an, of, etc.). The next person looks at the last post, posts their first word association, and so on. Please post your word at the end of your post so that this is the last word the next person reads and their association can be clear! The fun of the game is getting from... A Turn Away From Dissociation: The Association Thread
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/adult-coloring-books.65160/

Grounding Object

I ve seen this on other forums and thought I d start one here, just 5 things that are on your mind today, can be totally random, and they don t have to be questions, just 5 things you re thinking today. For example: 1. The room is way too hot. 2. I m thirsty. 3. I miss having a pet. 4. Still don t understand how tv works. 5. I think I ll start a new thread.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/grounding-object.65159/

Fmla Denied

What do you make of this article? If this is right I have been assaulted more often then I thought. Defining Sexual Assault | Sexual Assault Prevention and Awareness Center
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/fmla-denied.65158/

Depression Over Employment Opportunity

What do you make of this article? If this is right I have been assaulted more often then I thought. Defining Sexual Assault | Sexual Assault Prevention and Awareness Center
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/depression-over-employment-opportunity.65157/

Need Help... Ex With Ptsd

As a way to cope, I made a list of things I am grateful for today. It s something that I have found to be useful in the past. It has a stabilizing effect for me. It helps me keep a broader, more accurate, perspective. It doesn t always make me feel better. However, it usually does make coping a little easier. What am I grateful for today? I woke up this morning. I awoke from a restless night s sleep in my own bed. I didn t wake up with a hangover. I am grateful to start my day... What Are You Grateful For Today?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/need-help-ex-with-ptsd.65155/

Anyone With Hypothyroidism Taking Armour Thyroid?

As a way to cope, I made a list of things I am grateful for today. It s something that I have found to be useful in the past. It has a stabilizing effect for me. It helps me keep a broader, more accurate, perspective. It doesn t always make me feel better. However, it usually does make coping a little easier. What am I grateful for today? I woke up this morning. I awoke from a restless night s sleep in my own bed. I didn t wake up with a hangover. I am grateful to start my day... What Are You Grateful For Today?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/anyone-with-hypothyroidism-taking-armour-thyroid.62819/

Derealization

As a way to cope, I made a list of things I am grateful for today. It s something that I have found to be useful in the past. It has a stabilizing effect for me. It helps me keep a broader, more accurate, perspective. It doesn t always make me feel better. However, it usually does make coping a little easier. What am I grateful for today? I woke up this morning. I awoke from a restless night s sleep in my own bed. I didn t wake up with a hangover. I am grateful to start my day... What Are You Grateful For Today?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/derealization.65156/

Total Disassociation Day

My veteran and I were together for 2.5 years. This will be out 3rd break up. He recently started therapy at the end of July. I told him he needs to focus on recovery and we will put our relationship aside for now. We haven t talked much at all, I told him about a few weeks ago that it s okay for him to reach out so I know his heart is still with me, he responded back that he was happier not having been with me. I ignored the text because I thought maybe he was lashing out. Last night I... The Start Of Therapy Breakup
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/total-disassociation-day.65153/

Financial Rape

Do you live a solitary life? What struggles do you face? How do you deal with these struggles? I m coming to the realization that I actually have a chance of living a stable life IF I m alone. Maybe this sounds crazy, but due to the nature of my Abuse, I cannot handle any sort of relationship beyond an acquaintance who I only know very casually. I ve tried so hard for so long to have normal relationships but I have no clue how to have one. There seems to be this idea that I can just... Solitary Life
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/financial-rape.65151/

Standing Up And Following My Heart

I have a conflict with one of my best friends, R, that i need some help gaining perspective with. I ve been friends with R for a couple of years now. She has PTSD, severe Anxiety, and ADHD, so she s not the easiest person to be friends with but i mostly find my issues allow me to not take shit personally when she goes off the deep end, and we re ALWAYS there for one another when one person needs anything. R recently got engaged and had started planning her wedding. She was planning a small... Need Help Dealing With A Friend
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/standing-up-and-following-my-heart.65148/

Hi

I have a conflict with one of my best friends, R, that i need some help gaining perspective with. I ve been friends with R for a couple of years now. She has PTSD, severe Anxiety, and ADHD, so she s not the easiest person to be friends with but i mostly find my issues allow me to not take shit personally when she goes off the deep end, and we re ALWAYS there for one another when one person needs anything. R recently got engaged and had started planning her wedding. She was planning a small... Need Help Dealing With A Friend
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/hi.65149/

Struggling For 7 Years Now

I have a conflict with one of my best friends, R, that i need some help gaining perspective with. I ve been friends with R for a couple of years now. She has PTSD, severe Anxiety, and ADHD, so she s not the easiest person to be friends with but i mostly find my issues allow me to not take shit personally when she goes off the deep end, and we re ALWAYS there for one another when one person needs anything. R recently got engaged and had started planning her wedding. She was planning a small... Need Help Dealing With A Friend
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/struggling-for-7-years-now.65150/

Incest Survivor Learning How To Talk

I ve read this over and over, and it doesn t make sense to me. Any comments? Copy of letter, dated 9 Aug 2016 "Further to your compliant dated 4 May 2016, I am now in a position to write to you with the results of the investigation into the issues raised in your letter. I would like to thank you ...for raising these issues..and ...apologise for the delay in responding... X, Locality Manager and Y, Acting Locality Manager have investigated your concerns, which involved reviewing your... Nhs Response
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/incest-survivor-learning-how-to-talk.65147/

I Really Don't Know If I Should Say Something

Greetings, I ll just jump in and say I am in EMDR therapy. My husband was diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder and was hospitalized 37 days total over two hospitalizations (locked psych ward). After he was released the 1st time, he made a near-lethal, very bloody attempt (3 modes of Suicide at once). I located him via GPS and stopped the attempt by intervening with the carbon monoxide and then he began to cut himself and exposed his femoral artery. EMS helped stabilize him and he went... Stopped Husband s Near-fatal Suicide Attempt And Now I Have Ptsd.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-really-dont-know-if-i-should-say-something.65146/

8 Common Reasons Why People Stay in Abusive Relationships

written by guest author Dr. E. C. Gordon (PhD) If you ve never experienced an abusive relationship yourself, you may feel frustrated or thoroughly confused by those who choose to stay with physically or emotionally abusive partners. Meanwhile, if you suspect you re being abused, you may struggle to understand why you haven t yet left. However, there [ ]
https://www.myptsd.com/8-common-reasons-why-people-stay-in-abusive-relationships/1101/

A Glimmer Of Hope...

I ve seen this on other forums and thought I d start one here, just 5 things that are on your mind today, can be totally random, and they don t have to be questions, just 5 things you re thinking today. For example: 1. The room is way too hot. 2. I m thirsty. 3. I miss having a pet. 4. Still don t understand how tv works. 5. I think I ll start a new thread.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/a-glimmer-of-hope.60369/

Rebuilding My Life...

I find that when I get tired, symptoms are exaggerated. Physical symptoms intensify - the stress in my body is painful in my neck and back. I know when I m over tired because my muscles get so tight that I have to lie down. Sitting up can be painful. Emotional symptoms intensify - Anxiety is so much worse, negative self talk is worse, Depression is worse, line between past and present seems to blur. I think more and more about the past. Then I have a 3 hour nap and all is a little brighter.... Why Does Being Tired Make It So Much Worse?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/rebuilding-my-life.60320/

Gratitude

I am grateful for so many things despite this condition. I ve been saying the words lately but not really feeling them. I have felt that life was feeling too long. But today I am grateful to be able to leave the house for an hour. I m grateful to be able to sit outside for a few moments and enjoy the quiet evening without panic setting in. I am grateful for my faith. And I am so very grateful for the family that loves me and supports me and makes me feel like a worthwhile human being.... Gratitude
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/gratitude.65143/

What A Night....

I have pretty severe PTSD. Actually, I can t believe that I just wrote that, and that I ll be posting it online in a few minutes. This is incredibly hard for me to talk about. I think that s true for a few reasons. First, it s my personality. I m a reasonably private person, and I don t like having other people know that something is wrong. Beyond that, talking about my PTSD requires me to think about the traumatic experiences, and I worry that when I start thinking about them, I won t be... Talking About It Is Hard
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/what-a-night.65141/

What A Night....

I have pretty severe PTSD. Actually, I can t believe that I just wrote that, and that I ll be posting it online in a few minutes. This is incredibly hard for me to talk about. I think that s true for a few reasons. First, it s my personality. I m a reasonably private person, and I don t like having other people know that something is wrong. Beyond that, talking about my PTSD requires me to think about the traumatic experiences, and I worry that when I start thinking about them, I won t be... Talking About It Is Hard
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/what-a-night.65142/

Writing Exercises

Describe your ideal mom?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/writing-exercises.65140/

Do You Twitch?

Describe your ideal mom?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/do-you-twitch.3425/

Ptsd, Relationships And Cbt

Describe your ideal mom?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/ptsd-relationships-and-cbt.65138/

Solitary Life

Describe your ideal mom?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/solitary-life.65139/

So..i Just Fell Apart. Trying To Accept What Happened.

I am always f*cking angry. I ve been dealing with this shit for 30 years of my life. It eats me up inside that my wrongdoers have gotten away with it. I heard no apology. I don t see them repenting. I don t see them even trying to do the right thing. I really, really want to see my wrongdoers suffer. That feels like the only Cure, otherwise I spend my entire day ruminating over every incident and come up with scenarios in my head on how they should suffer. Yes, I think about it all day... I Am Always f*cking Angry And I Give Up
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/so-i-just-fell-apart-trying-to-accept-what-happened.52985/

New With Questions

As some of you might know I m a passionate member of postcrossing.com. I sent one of my last cards to a young girl in Ukraine - more specific Krim peninsula. When other people receive your card, the type in the code and some also write a short message. The girl whom I sent a touristic view from where I live, wrote that the place looks really beautiful and that she hopes that it might be safe where I live. Concerning the current situation on the Krim - I was deeply moved by her simple but... What Moved You Emotionally Today?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/new-with-questions.63131/