My Ptsd Isn't What Everybody (including Me) Thought It Was (long Post)

I have been dealing with diagnosed PTSD for about half a year now. This began when I was sent to an involuntary psychiatric ward by my doctor when he was somehow convinced I was suicidal. While at the ward I began showing clear symptoms of PTSD including nightmares and severe startling when wakened at night for medication. I finally convinced them to just touch my toes lightly to wake me up. It worked well because I was not sleeping soundly at all. I was severely abused in my childhood... My Ptsd Isn t What Everybody (including Me) Thought It Was (long Post)
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