My System Freaks Out When I Get Close To Somebody

My system freaks out when I get close to somebody. This has been happening since I was a child. (I am a CSA survivor.) I have tried the whole bit about getting to know people and building trust over time. Turns out, it never works. For the longest time I was picking untrustworthy people (for one reason or another.) The control freak. The narcissist. The sexual deviant. The alcoholic. The pathological liar. And so on. While all of this was happening I was able to tell myself that my... My System Freaks Out When I Get Close To Somebody
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