Derealization

Thats me. Makin my self unpopular. I dont need to be liked be everyone and everybody. But this is a little to much for me when rarely anyone does. I wonder what the heck is wrong with me? How do I manage to make most of whom I meet with draw from me? It really hurts. And I have no clue whatsover to how I look like I appear from outside? Yes I know the trick about asking people how I appear and Ill do that. Soon. Just dreading. Tomorow is an event. Ive invited people. And yes they want to... How To Make Your Self Unpopular
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/derealization.66950/

Post-panic Experiences

Had another deeply unpleasant doctor s visit yesterday with my 5-month-old. I was admonished for only recently starting to give him Vitamin D .... which I was not aware I should have been giving him since birth. The situation is this: We go for monthly, sometimes bi-monthly, check ups. Every time i go, I tell the doctor how much I feed him, how often. i fill the doctor in on our entire routine, and all the baby s new behaviors. And every time I ask if there is anything else I should be... Should I Have Known?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/post-panic-experiences.66948/

Flashbacks

I read a lot here about people s feeling, thoughts, issues, etc are theirs or about them and not yours or about you. But what someone says or thinks or feels, feels directed at me (regardless if it is or not) it is very hard to allow their stuff be their stuff and not bring it into being my stuff and not allow it to affect me. I completely get the concept but I am having a very hard time doing it. Like when someone says "don t take it personal", it s hard not to when it feels personal.... How Do You Not Take On Other s "stuff".
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/flashbacks.66946/

How Do You Know?

I read a lot here about people s feeling, thoughts, issues, etc are theirs or about them and not yours or about you. But what someone says or thinks or feels, feels directed at me (regardless if it is or not) it is very hard to allow their stuff be their stuff and not bring it into being my stuff and not allow it to affect me. I completely get the concept but I am having a very hard time doing it. Like when someone says "don t take it personal", it s hard not to when it feels personal.... How Do You Not Take On Other s "stuff".
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/how-do-you-know.66947/

I Need To Hurt Myself If I Want To Feel Anything

I saw a similarily titled thread and it reminded me of my current situation. My husband of 4 years passed away 5/4/15. It was unexpected and devastating. Regardless of anything else he taught me what it was like to feel loved and respected. I had never known before and it changed me for the better. I will keep this short as possible. He left no will for his estate which is four properties that he had neglected due to Depression that set in once he retired. He has four grown children. I... Not Being Believed
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-need-to-hurt-myself-if-i-want-to-feel-anything.66945/

How Worried Should I Be?

We decided to end things a few weeks back because he can t give me a relationship while he focuses on getting better...I know he won t reach out to me because he won t want to inadvertently hurt me again......but I just have this overwhelming urge to reach out to him...show up at his house to see him again....I don t know if this is wise/passsionate/caring, or if it s crazy & self destructive....thoughts?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/how-worried-should-i-be.66944/

How Do I Deal With Halloween When I Have Ptsd?

Hi all, I m new here, and not really sure where this will lead, but hopefully some place supportive and healing. I should probably place a warning on the rest of this introduction. I m an EMT, and the job seems to have broken my brain. Also, I lost 2 platoon members to Suicide within 3 months of each other, one of them was my work partner. I struggled to get help for years, while my employer fought (and is still fighting) to deny there s a problem within our ranks. We actually just had... New Here
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/how-do-i-deal-with-halloween-when-i-have-ptsd.66942/

How Do I Break The News To My Mom About Repressed Sexual Abuse?

I ll start. ................ I feel a greatly alarmed. I feel very angry. I feel cautious. I feel confused. I feel Depressed. I feel disgusted with the influences of the world. Specifically tv and its content, as well as, gen. socially acceptable, societal hidden teachings. I feel distanced from contact and/or intimacy with family, friends, people in general (all of humanity). Intimacy to me does not mean sex. I feel embarrassment, for having been so vulnerable in my past and... What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/how-do-i-break-the-news-to-my-mom-about-repressed-sexual-abuse.66941/

Tried

What happens if u tell a school counsellor you have tried to kill yourself
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/tried.66940/

Ptsd Into Anxiety

So for a while my therapist has been tossing around the idea of psychosis mainly because I get these intrusive thoughts that become so vivid, it starts to overlap with what I m seeing in the real world. She s not sure if some of my intrusive thoughts are memories in itself or are created by my own mind. Another thing is that I ll get episodes of paranoia and delusional thinking that may last from a few days to a month. I ll think people are lying to me, tricking me, might be tracking me,... Psychosis, Multiple Personalities, Or Dissociation?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/ptsd-into-anxiety.66938/

I've Been Quite Far To Long And It's Killing Me

So for a while my therapist has been tossing around the idea of psychosis mainly because I get these intrusive thoughts that become so vivid, it starts to overlap with what I m seeing in the real world. She s not sure if some of my intrusive thoughts are memories in itself or are created by my own mind. Another thing is that I ll get episodes of paranoia and delusional thinking that may last from a few days to a month. I ll think people are lying to me, tricking me, might be tracking me,... Psychosis, Multiple Personalities, Or Dissociation?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/ive-been-quite-far-to-long-and-its-killing-me.65304/

Psychosis, Multiple Personalities, Or Dissociation?

So for a while my therapist has been tossing around the idea of psychosis mainly because I get these intrusive thoughts that become so vivid, it starts to overlap with what I m seeing in the real world. She s not sure if some of my intrusive thoughts are memories in itself or are created by my own mind. Another thing is that I ll get episodes of paranoia and delusional thinking that may last from a few days to a month. I ll think people are lying to me, tricking me, might be tracking me,... Psychosis, Multiple Personalities, Or Dissociation?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/psychosis-multiple-personalities-or-dissociation.66939/

Should I End This Or Am I Just Being Paranoid

I wanted to hear your thoughts on how you share challenging issues with Therapist! Anything from traumas, self injury, symptoms, fears, and anything you struggle with sharing. Did you just not share, write it down, or make them figure it out etc. I am still fairly new to therapy and find this challenging and truly interested in what you all have experienced. Thanks for your replies.☺️
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/should-i-end-this-or-am-i-just-being-paranoid.66934/

I Just Want To Die!

I wanted to hear your thoughts on how you share challenging issues with Therapist! Anything from traumas, self injury, symptoms, fears, and anything you struggle with sharing. Did you just not share, write it down, or make them figure it out etc. I am still fairly new to therapy and find this challenging and truly interested in what you all have experienced. Thanks for your replies.☺️
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-just-want-to-die.66935/

Court Tomorrow

I wanted to hear your thoughts on how you share challenging issues with Therapist! Anything from traumas, self injury, symptoms, fears, and anything you struggle with sharing. Did you just not share, write it down, or make them figure it out etc. I am still fairly new to therapy and find this challenging and truly interested in what you all have experienced. Thanks for your replies.☺️
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/court-tomorrow.66936/

Share Your Experience Of Telling T Hard Things.

I wanted to hear your thoughts on how you share challenging issues with Therapist! Anything from traumas, self injury, symptoms, fears, and anything you struggle with sharing. Did you just not share, write it down, or make them figure it out etc. I am still fairly new to therapy and find this challenging and truly interested in what you all have experienced. Thanks for your replies.☺️
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/share-your-experience-of-telling-t-hard-things.66937/

He Would Be So Mad If He Knew...

I read a lot here about people s feeling, thoughts, issues, etc are theirs or about them and not yours or about you. But what someone says or thinks or feels, feels directed at me (regardless if it is or not) it is very hard to allow their stuff be their stuff and not bring it into being my stuff and not allow it to affect me. I completely get the concept but I am having a very hard time doing it. Like when someone says "don t take it personal", it s hard not to when it feels personal.... How Do You Not Take On Other s "stuff".
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/he-would-be-so-mad-if-he-knew.66932/

How Do You Not Take On Other's "stuff".

I read a lot here about people s feeling, thoughts, issues, etc are theirs or about them and not yours or about you. But what someone says or thinks or feels, feels directed at me (regardless if it is or not) it is very hard to allow their stuff be their stuff and not bring it into being my stuff and not allow it to affect me. I completely get the concept but I am having a very hard time doing it. Like when someone says "don t take it personal", it s hard not to when it feels personal.... How Do You Not Take On Other s "stuff".
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/how-do-you-not-take-on-others-stuff.66931/

Looking For A Kindred Spirit. Loyal Friend.

Has anyone has a problem with their doctor assuming all physical symptoms are linked to your PTSD/Anxiety/Depression? I ve been complaining for 2 years about not feeling right. I ve pointed out some specific issues and indicated I needed specialist follow up. Blood tests are normal, so no further action. I pushed through, and had an incident that lead to my PTSD diagnosis. I was out of work for a short time and was able to return; get the job done. I worked very hard; as did... Ptsd Vs. Other Medical Conditions. How To Tell What s Causing What...
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/looking-for-a-kindred-spirit-loyal-friend.66928/

Body Awareness

Has anyone has a problem with their doctor assuming all physical symptoms are linked to your PTSD/Anxiety/Depression? I ve been complaining for 2 years about not feeling right. I ve pointed out some specific issues and indicated I needed specialist follow up. Blood tests are normal, so no further action. I pushed through, and had an incident that lead to my PTSD diagnosis. I was out of work for a short time and was able to return; get the job done. I worked very hard; as did... Ptsd Vs. Other Medical Conditions. How To Tell What s Causing What...
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/body-awareness.66930/

Ptsd Vs. Other Medical Conditions. How To Tell What's Causing What...

Has anyone has a problem with their doctor assuming all physical symptoms are linked to your PTSD/Anxiety/Depression? I ve been complaining for 2 years about not feeling right. I ve pointed out some specific issues and indicated I needed specialist follow up. Blood tests are normal, so no further action. I pushed through, and had an incident that lead to my PTSD diagnosis. I was out of work for a short time and was able to return; get the job done. I worked very hard; as did... Ptsd Vs. Other Medical Conditions. How To Tell What s Causing What...
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/ptsd-vs-other-medical-conditions-how-to-tell-whats-causing-what.66929/

Good Struggle?

This thread is NOT for the purpose of political discussion or debate. Please do not comment about candidates or parties if you comment in order to keep this thread focused and on-topic. I am posting it in this sub forum because it is still about the news. (Mods, feel free to move or do whatever you feel is best about this thread.) A lot of people are pretty stressed about the upcomming US presidential election. PTSD + election stress = our stress cups are more likely to overflow...... Election Stress Management Plan (not A Political Debate Thread)
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/good-struggle.66923/

Ramblings Of An Insomniac...

This thread is NOT for the purpose of political discussion or debate. Please do not comment about candidates or parties if you comment in order to keep this thread focused and on-topic. I am posting it in this sub forum because it is still about the news. (Mods, feel free to move or do whatever you feel is best about this thread.) A lot of people are pretty stressed about the upcomming US presidential election. PTSD + election stress = our stress cups are more likely to overflow...... Election Stress Management Plan (not A Political Debate Thread)
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/ramblings-of-an-insomniac.66924/

A Positive Note

This thread is NOT for the purpose of political discussion or debate. Please do not comment about candidates or parties if you comment in order to keep this thread focused and on-topic. I am posting it in this sub forum because it is still about the news. (Mods, feel free to move or do whatever you feel is best about this thread.) A lot of people are pretty stressed about the upcomming US presidential election. PTSD + election stress = our stress cups are more likely to overflow...... Election Stress Management Plan (not A Political Debate Thread)
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/a-positive-note.66925/

Election Stress Management Plan (not A Political Debate Thread)

This thread is NOT for the purpose of political discussion or debate. Please do not comment about candidates or parties if you comment in order to keep this thread focused and on-topic. I am posting it in this sub forum because it is still about the news. (Mods, feel free to move or do whatever you feel is best about this thread.) A lot of people are pretty stressed about the upcomming US presidential election. PTSD + election stress = our stress cups are more likely to overflow...... Election Stress Management Plan (not A Political Debate Thread)
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/election-stress-management-plan-not-a-political-debate-thread.66926/

Feeling Disconnected From Past...

This is my second posting on double bind. I didn t add on to the last one because I feel like my thoughts.information I have gathered has taken off in a different direction. This is more about how double binds can lead to Schizophrenic behaviour (Bateson). This challenges the present idea that schizophrenia is based on a poor gene pool only. Anyway, this is the Spartan Life Coach - a video. I wonder if any of you can relate to this at all. I am certain that my family falls under this... The Double Bind - Part Ii
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/feeling-disconnected-from-past.66922/

Is It Just Me Or.

My husband was very nice to me this weekend. But I m use to this. It will last a little while and then return to his inability to tolerate me. Its ok I tell myself. My father was the same way...
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/is-it-just-me-or.66920/

Good Doesnt Last Long

My husband was very nice to me this weekend. But I m use to this. It will last a little while and then return to his inability to tolerate me. Its ok I tell myself. My father was the same way...
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/good-doesnt-last-long.66921/

Medication Merri Go Round

Need once again, to get this out of chest. As, it hurts and feels like a burden at times. Right now, it hurts and I dont find the right tool to regulate these emotions. I have been isolating myself, from time to time. Its an ambiguous thing wanting friendships with people.The seeking I tend to identify as weakness, the not having is leaving me disconnected. I have been an admirer of the hermit existence, people who leave Zivilisation. This comes from a deep grievence, I guess no need to say... Its Not Self Sufficieny You Isolate Yourself!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/medication-merri-go-round.66919/

Cptsd Vs Ptsd

Need once again, to get this out of chest. As, it hurts and feels like a burden at times. Right now, it hurts and I dont find the right tool to regulate these emotions. I have been isolating myself, from time to time. Its an ambiguous thing wanting friendships with people.The seeking I tend to identify as weakness, the not having is leaving me disconnected. I have been an admirer of the hermit existence, people who leave Zivilisation. This comes from a deep grievence, I guess no need to say... Its Not Self Sufficieny You Isolate Yourself!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/cptsd-vs-ptsd.66918/

Sensory Sensitivity - Sensory Processing Disorder

Need once again, to get this out of chest. As, it hurts and feels like a burden at times. Right now, it hurts and I dont find the right tool to regulate these emotions. I have been isolating myself, from time to time. Its an ambiguous thing wanting friendships with people.The seeking I tend to identify as weakness, the not having is leaving me disconnected. I have been an admirer of the hermit existence, people who leave Zivilisation. This comes from a deep grievence, I guess no need to say... Its Not Self Sufficieny You Isolate Yourself!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/sensory-sensitivity-sensory-processing-disorder.66917/

Its Not Self Sufficieny You Isolate Yourself!

First time here. My husband of 6 years has PTSD stemming from childhood sexual Abuse. He s recently returned home from an inpatient treatment program. He s doing much better than he has in ages. He s getting EMDR and joining a group therapy in addition to the therapist who has been treating us for several years. He s also augmenting therapy with some holistic treatments. I m about to turn 40 and we do not have any children. I ve always wanted children but for most of our relationship he has... Biological Clock Ticking
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/its-not-self-sufficieny-you-isolate-yourself.66916/

Mental Tricks For Dealing With Difficult People

This is a silly game for all of us to connect whom usually disconnect. I will start with a word. The next person to post must post the first word that comes to mind (articles and prepositions do not count: the, a, an, of, etc.). The next person looks at the last post, posts their first word association, and so on. Please post your word at the end of your post so that this is the last word the next person reads and their association can be clear! The fun of the game is getting from... A Turn Away From Dissociation: The Association Thread
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/mental-tricks-for-dealing-with-difficult-people.66915/

Get Your Raffle Ticket - Only Hours Left

Hello, I m Kate and I was diagnosed with PTSD last year after disclosing in therapy for Anxiety I had experienced multiple traumatic events (I don t know the detail you are allowed to go into on here? rules?) starting from childhood, the final one happening the year before that. I had been diagnosed with things like panic disorder, Depression and agoraphobia in the past and got treatment through CBT and anti-depressants but was too afraid to disclose the events to anyone (even in my own... Hello, Been In Treatment 1 Year, Want To Learn From Others
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/get-your-raffle-ticket-only-hours-left.66913/

Hello, Been In Treatment 1 Year, Want To Learn From Others

Hello, I m Kate and I was diagnosed with PTSD last year after disclosing in therapy for Anxiety I had experienced multiple traumatic events (I don t know the detail you are allowed to go into on here? rules?) starting from childhood, the final one happening the year before that. I had been diagnosed with things like panic disorder, Depression and agoraphobia in the past and got treatment through CBT and anti-depressants but was too afraid to disclose the events to anyone (even in my own... Hello, Been In Treatment 1 Year, Want To Learn From Others
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/hello-been-in-treatment-1-year-want-to-learn-from-others.66914/

Why I Can't Press Charges And Other Mutinous Mind Games

I am driving myself, and probably everyone around me, mad by being so needy all the time lately. I just seem to not be able to function and cope on my own right now. I am struggling with my injuries, had my trauma anniversary to get through last weekend, am signed off work and either stuck indoors or in a wheelchair if I go out. I am constantly a teary mess and just feel I have totally lost my ability to cope with anything and I know I am gradually driving people away and making them sick... Driving People Away - Too Needy
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/why-i-cant-press-charges-and-other-mutinous-mind-games.66910/

Does Anyone Else Have A Parent With Mental Illness/addiction?

I am driving myself, and probably everyone around me, mad by being so needy all the time lately. I just seem to not be able to function and cope on my own right now. I am struggling with my injuries, had my trauma anniversary to get through last weekend, am signed off work and either stuck indoors or in a wheelchair if I go out. I am constantly a teary mess and just feel I have totally lost my ability to cope with anything and I know I am gradually driving people away and making them sick... Driving People Away - Too Needy
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/does-anyone-else-have-a-parent-with-mental-illness-addiction.66912/

Wtf, Is This Because Of Ptsd ...

I am driving myself, and probably everyone around me, mad by being so needy all the time lately. I just seem to not be able to function and cope on my own right now. I am struggling with my injuries, had my trauma anniversary to get through last weekend, am signed off work and either stuck indoors or in a wheelchair if I go out. I am constantly a teary mess and just feel I have totally lost my ability to cope with anything and I know I am gradually driving people away and making them sick... Driving People Away - Too Needy
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/wtf-is-this-because-of-ptsd.66911/

How Often Do You Have Flashbacks?

Why is it that I have no tolerance for people and get annoyed and want to retreat as soon as I try and get to know someone? Feeling talked down to,judged, and misunderstood. It makes me not want to participate in activities or get close to anyone or let them close to me. Thanks for any feedback.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/how-often-do-you-have-flashbacks.66907/

How Do You Ground When Nothing Works?

Why is it that I have no tolerance for people and get annoyed and want to retreat as soon as I try and get to know someone? Feeling talked down to,judged, and misunderstood. It makes me not want to participate in activities or get close to anyone or let them close to me. Thanks for any feedback.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/how-do-you-ground-when-nothing-works.66908/

Contact With Abuser

Why is it that I have no tolerance for people and get annoyed and want to retreat as soon as I try and get to know someone? Feeling talked down to,judged, and misunderstood. It makes me not want to participate in activities or get close to anyone or let them close to me. Thanks for any feedback.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/contact-with-abuser.66909/

Insecurity Making Me Doubt Friends' Loyalty

We decided to end things a few weeks back because he can t give me a relationship while he focuses on getting better...I know he won t reach out to me because he won t want to inadvertently hurt me again......but I just have this overwhelming urge to reach out to him...show up at his house to see him again....I don t know if this is wise/passsionate/caring, or if it s crazy & self destructive....thoughts?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/insecurity-making-me-doubt-friends-loyalty.66904/

Why Feel Someone Else's Sadness?

We decided to end things a few weeks back because he can t give me a relationship while he focuses on getting better...I know he won t reach out to me because he won t want to inadvertently hurt me again......but I just have this overwhelming urge to reach out to him...show up at his house to see him again....I don t know if this is wise/passsionate/caring, or if it s crazy & self destructive....thoughts?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/why-feel-someone-elses-sadness.66905/

Feeling Misunderstood

We decided to end things a few weeks back because he can t give me a relationship while he focuses on getting better...I know he won t reach out to me because he won t want to inadvertently hurt me again......but I just have this overwhelming urge to reach out to him...show up at his house to see him again....I don t know if this is wise/passsionate/caring, or if it s crazy & self destructive....thoughts?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/feeling-misunderstood.66906/

Ptsdon't Touch Me

I don t really know where to begin, but here it is. I was raised by my mother and father, it was the typical immigrant up raising; perfection was the standard. My sisters and I grew up knowing what falling below the standard meant, it meant we d be slapped, whipped, and degraded until we broke. We were "omelet kids" beat until we were perfect. To be honest, the beatings weren t the worst parts, I found that after a while they all felt the same, the worst part was what would be said. The... Ptsdon t Touch Me
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/ptsdont-touch-me.66903/

Driving People Away - Too Needy

I m sure there are more threads on this but Lay your favorite words down. Whether they are yours alone or Poems from your favorite poetic writers or song lyrics. This is a thread to leave the sacred word of poetry and lyrical word. Let them flow out like water and ripple, reverberate!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/driving-people-away-too-needy.66902/

Driving People Away - Too Needyi

This is my second posting on double bind. I didn t add on to the last one because I feel like my thoughts.information I have gathered has taken off in a different direction. This is more about how double binds can lead to Schizophrenic behaviour (Bateson). This challenges the present idea that schizophrenia is based on a poor gene pool only. Anyway, this is the Spartan Life Coach - a video. I wonder if any of you can relate to this at all. I am certain that my family falls under this... The Double Bind - Part Ii
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/driving-people-away-too-needyi.66902/

Having A Hard Time Adjusting

My sister and I both have Chronic Obstructive Pulmonary Disease which is eventually terminal. The problem is, I am at stage 2 while she is at stage 4. From what I understand, the life expectancy for someone with stage 4 COPD is about two years. I have not accepted this as true and still am not sure if I do until I hear it from a respiratory therapist but, my sister maintains it is the truth. If it is a fact, then, I am going to be grieving again soon as I am very close with my baby... Terminal Illness And Acceptance
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/having-a-hard-time-adjusting.66901/

First Entry - I Bet I Won't Keep Up With This Either.

My sister and I both have Chronic Obstructive Pulmonary Disease which is eventually terminal. The problem is, I am at stage 2 while she is at stage 4. From what I understand, the life expectancy for someone with stage 4 COPD is about two years. I have not accepted this as true and still am not sure if I do until I hear it from a respiratory therapist but, my sister maintains it is the truth. If it is a fact, then, I am going to be grieving again soon as I am very close with my baby... Terminal Illness And Acceptance
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/first-entry-i-bet-i-wont-keep-up-with-this-either.61195/

The Double Bind - Part Ii

I ve seen this on other forums and thought I d start one here, just 5 things that are on your mind today, can be totally random, and they don t have to be questions, just 5 things you re thinking today. For example: 1. The room is way too hot. 2. I m thirsty. 3. I miss having a pet. 4. Still don t understand how tv works. 5. I think I ll start a new thread.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/the-double-bind-part-ii.66900/