Introduction

I have been severely Depressed for weeks now and it is getting worse. I feel ashamed for wanting to die and the Suicide ideation that has plagued me for days. I want to get in my truck and drive it right into the lake. Or into the overpass. I even considered walking into that son of bitches home and saying ok dad.. you win and blowing my f*cking brains out right there with the gun he forced me to use on my own dog and then convinced me it was my own idea. I f*cking hate what he has done to... How Much Longer Can I Take This Torture?
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