The Double Bind Condition

My birth father is a sociopath. My birth mother was a schizophrenic. I was with them, on and off until I was two. My existence was far from honoured. They wanted me dead. If I expressed a need I would be tortured. If I didn t express a need I would be left alone but went without a primary need (to the state I would starve myself for instance) I could not seek help (obviously) I understand the theory of a double bind as it related to my young life: 1. do this, you are punished (cry... The Double Bind Condition
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