I Feel... This Sense Of Shock

All day it seems that I m frequently taking pauses where I just don t feel anything at all. All I think about are the awful things that happened to me in the past, and all the things that I ve done since. I keep getting all these mixed thoughts of regret, reminiscing, terror, etc. But I just stare. Stare at the TV screen, stare at the computer, stare at something. It feels really, really unpleasant. This comes days after I "lashed out" at someone because I was just feeling so much anger and... I Feel... This Sense Of Shock
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