Asking For Help

I find it impossible to reach out and ask for help, mainly because most, if not all, of my traumas have involved doing that only to be ignored or abused in response. But I find myself fantasizing about ways to kill myself almost 24/7. I have started therapy but it seems to be making me worse. I look around and think of who to turn to and realize that I don t have a single friend or family member to help me. I don t have anywhere to go and don t even have health insurance to pay for a hospital... Asking For Help
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