Changed Clothes And Now Confused

I really had a hard time a few days ago. I was very suicidal and was locked in my closet with the means for two hours. That is when I called all those lines and got chewed out but kept persisting etc because I want to be here. Anyway, someone said to me, "Let nature decide" and it was like a PUNCH to my face. THAT is part of the reason I want to end my life. Nature has decided to give me a disability when I was born. nature led me to a pedofile. Nature balh blah........ For me it is... Thoughts Behind Si
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