MyPTSD: May 2016

Tuesday, 3 May 2016

Just Play Something

Hi everyone, I was wondering if there are any other lawyers or law students on here. I m supposed to graduate from law school in about a year. I would love to hear from others in the field with ptsd. How have you coped with your symptoms at school/work? Are there any areas you have felt necessary to avoid? What do you wish you had known about being a lawyer with ptsd when you started? Also, if you work in a different field with similarities I would be interested in hearing from you. Thanks!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/just-play-something.61583/

What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

As a sufferer, if you have shut someone out, and later returned to the relationship, how long did the shut outs typically last? As a supporter, if you have been shut out by a sufferer who later returned to the relationship, how long did the shut out typically last? A shut out can include any of the following: lack of response to the other person, cut off communication, pushed them away, ghosted, didn t respond, isolated, broke up with someone, ended the friendship, etc. If... How Long Do Shut Outs Last?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/what-are-you-feeling-today-not-thinking-rather-feeling-can-you-identify-yours.3889/

Invisible Handcuffs Of Fear

Tinnitus

Nightmares And Memorie Follow Me Through The Day

This is a silly game for all of us to connect whom usually disconnect. I will start with a word. The next person to post must post the first word that comes to mind (articles and prepositions do not count: the, a, an, of, etc.). The next person looks at the last post, posts their first word association, and so on. Please post your word at the end of your post so that this is the last word the next person reads and their association can be clear! The fun of the game is getting from... A Turn Away From Dissociation: The Association Thread
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/nightmares-and-memorie-follow-me-through-the-day.61577/

Abandonment Issues - Seems We All Have It?

Hello. I m new and would like some advice. My boyfriend of a year and a half has PTSD. He often times wants space to deal with things. I ve tried getting him to lean on me and include me but he says he can only do it by himself. That the only way he s ever gotten better was focusing with no distractions. He s having a really bad episode now and is depressed on top of it. He s feeling overwhelmed and says he s being pulled in all directions...his family, ex-wife and even me. Sad thing... My Boyfriend Suffers From Ptsd
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/abandonment-issues-seems-we-all-have-it.61575/

20 And Cant Start Relationships?

Im New Here

I posted this a few days ago but I m having a hard time today.... Hello. I m new and would like some advice. My boyfriend of a year and a half has PTSD. He often times wants space to deal with things. I ve tried getting him to lean on me and include me but he says he can only do it by himself. That the only way he s ever gotten better was focusing with no distractions. He s having a really bad episode now and is... My Boyfriend Has Shut Me Out
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/im-new-here.61576/

Does Anyone Else Have Unintentional Weight Loss?

Hi everyone, I am writing this thread from my own observations and reading around the subject quite a lot. Please don t feel that I m being sexist or racist in this question but I m going to write what has been happening to me for the last 2 months at being my current college. Intro: I m a female of age 28, fit and athletic (been exercising for last 9 yrs and look 6-7 yrs younger than my age), reasonably okay looking, well qualified, NZ citizen. All my life, I was... Can Men Be "just Friends" With A Woman They Find Attractive???
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/does-anyone-else-have-unintentional-weight-loss.40951/

Criticism - Is It Them Or You?

Look I have read the rules about no personal attacks but yet the founder of this site seems to get away with it. I was reading a thread where he responded and the way he acted seemed to me was just that a personal attack. I find this disturbing and shocking. I am not the kind of person to cry wolf but I speak up when I see something wrong and that was wring
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/criticism-is-it-them-or-you.49588/

Can Men Be "just Friends" With A Woman They Find Attractive???

Hi everyone, I am writing this thread from my own observations and reading around the subject quite a lot. Please don t feel that I m being sexist or racist in this question but I m going to write what has been happening to me for the last 2 months at being my current college. Intro: I m a female of age 28, fit and athletic (been exercising for last 9 yrs and look 6-7 yrs younger than my age), reasonably okay looking, well qualified, NZ citizen. All my life, I was... Can Men Be "just Friends" With A Woman They Find Attractive???
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/can-men-be-just-friends-with-a-woman-they-find-attractive.61574/

A Glimmer Of Hope...

Paramedic With Issues

so, I don t know, I ll keep it short. to make a long story short, as a result of lifelong original traumas & lack of mental health treatment at that time, I ended up revictimizing myself. it s hard to live with & my last therapist was horrible & really put the blame on me/doesn t know anything about complex trauma or even just single incident trauma to be honest. he was honestly a whackjob, but still destroyed my mental health due to psychologists having an imbalance of power. but I don t... Living With Revictimization - Difficult
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/paramedic-with-issues.58810/

Wake Up Choking

Car Accident And Strange Emotions

Hello , I m new here and figured I d introduce myself. This is my 1st group/forum I ve ever joined since being dx with C-PTSD in 2010. I ve suffered with it for many years prior, but didn t know I had C-PTSD. I m 35 yrs old. I was 18 when I was raped (its how i lost my virginity) , and a few years after that I got into an abusive marriage where I was physically , emotionally, and mentally abused for years until I finally got out of the marriage. I have a hard time meeting people ,... New Here
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/car-accident-and-strange-emotions.61569/

Living With Revictimization - Difficult

Oklahoma Court Ruling

I m curious. Recently, I read a comment from another member criticizing comments that were platitudes rather than helpful advice. I ve always assumed that even if I don t have anything useful to say, then saying something kind is also helpful. I m feeling a bit self-conscious now, because I m not sure if my platitudes are a waste of keystrokes, and possibly an annoyance. If that s the case, I m fine with it - I just like to know what s expected of me. I d be grateful for input from... Platitudes?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/oklahoma-court-ruling.61571/

My Boyfriend Has Shut Me Out

Trauma Diary Access

Lost And Feeling Dumb

Desire To Know Abusers Criminal History. Just Me?

Feels Too Big....

I am new and stumbled upon this site while doing some research and it seems to be the best place for my curious. I am very shy and closed off about personal sexual things. I can make jokes about anything outside of me but as soon as it s about me personally, I shut down. My girlfriend and I have a counselor and during our last session she brought up how she is sexually frustrated with how short our interactions are. Though during the session I was constantly visually uncomfortable and... Just Curious.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/feels-too-big.61562/

New Here

I currently have a lot of pain in my upper back, not hideous pain just constant interfering discomfort. A lot has happened recently in my life and I really believe this is a body memory that I want to process....but I don t know how to. My abuse (CSA) was never physically violent (that I remember) so I can t link this pain to anything specific. Does anyone have any thoughts on what I could try to release it?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/new-here.61565/

Platitudes?

Xanax Experiences

Suddenly Scared To Be Alone - Need Advice

Why Do You Go Private Instead Of Public? (or Vice Versa)

I ll start. ................ I feel a greatly alarmed. I feel very angry. I feel cautious. I feel confused. I feel depressed. I feel disgusted with the influences of the world. Specifically tv and its content, as well as, gen. socially acceptable, societal hidden teachings. I feel distanced from contact and/or intimacy with family, friends, people in general (all of humanity). Intimacy to me does not mean sex. I feel embarrassment, for having been so vulnerable in my past and... What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/why-do-you-go-private-instead-of-public-or-vice-versa.61558/

Can You Ask For Your Records, Or For Them To Be Destroyed?

I ll start. ................ I feel a greatly alarmed. I feel very angry. I feel cautious. I feel confused. I feel depressed. I feel disgusted with the influences of the world. Specifically tv and its content, as well as, gen. socially acceptable, societal hidden teachings. I feel distanced from contact and/or intimacy with family, friends, people in general (all of humanity). Intimacy to me does not mean sex. I feel embarrassment, for having been so vulnerable in my past and... What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/can-you-ask-for-your-records-or-for-them-to-be-destroyed.61559/

Tl;dr C-ptsd Therapist Mom Facing Divorce

Hi - I m a longtime sufferer of c-PTSD. I have several instances of childhood sexual abuse, been in shooting, had a traumatic death at 18, two rapes at 18 and 20, and a friend was stabbed and died at 19. Other than that I ve had a very lucky life - people who were there at the right time, good friends, and I am now working on a doctorate in clinical psychology. I have done work on my own trauma for the last 12 years off and on. You know how it goes - lots of ups and downs, unhealthy... Tl;dr C-ptsd Therapist Mom Facing Divorce
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/tl-dr-c-ptsd-therapist-mom-facing-divorce.61556/

Crashing After Reaching Safety: How To Make People Understand

Highly tempted to put swear words in the title just before the word "understand." I spent over 20 years of my life in life-threatening danger from my murderous father and my mother was zero help in all this. I had PTSD during the last part of this. I could not finish a doctorate because it s hard to when you (a) get sent death threats in the mail by your father, (b) University decides to move you to a high-security dorm (all costs to you) because they feel that having a parent murder their... Crashing After Reaching Safety: How To Make People Understand
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/crashing-after-reaching-safety-how-to-make-people-understand.61557/

Ptsd Specific Emot-icons

We ve got a good selection of emoticons, but what might PTSD forum specific emoticons look like? A dog kennel for "He/She has isolated again"? a figure made of lots of little emoticons for parts? What would yours be?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/ptsd-specific-emot-icons.59443/

New To The Forum And Starting Edmr

Hi, I joined the forum yesterday because after many years of counselling on and off my most recent counsellor told me that I am suffering from PTSD. To cut a very long story short, I was raised by my mother until the age of 11. During this time she was in a DV relationship with a long term boyfriend. I would often see and hear her being abused. I was also the victim of her physical and emotional abuse until I went to live with my father. My father lived with his parents and I had a strict... New To The Forum And Starting Edmr
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/new-to-the-forum-and-starting-edmr.60425/

What Do Your Parts Feel Like?

My T says that I have dissociative parts. But she also says that I told her about them. Now I m not sure. How do you tell the difference between what is normal and what is dissociative? I know that in session, I will sometimes "switch" into a teenager- angry, defiant, slouching, limited vocabulary. Other times, I just "blur out". My T notices it immediately nowadays (she s not a specialist in dissociation, but she s researching because of me). I also notice in certain situations that I m... What Do Your Parts Feel Like?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/what-do-your-parts-feel-like.61554/

5-htp Works For Me

Hello everybody out there I usually do the reading and not the posting so I figured that I will give back something to the many many people that have given me hope and ideas for my symptoms. This is my first post here on this forum. I am a 39 year old female and have been suffering from PTSD and trauma related symptoms all of my life. Sometimes it was better ( less anxiety) than other times, but it has always been there. Body memories, anxiety, isolating myself from others. My family... 5-htp Works For Me
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/5-htp-works-for-me.61555/

Ever Wonder If You're Faking It? What/how Do You Decide?

Sorry in advance about the craziness. Today is one of those days. I m sure I m faking my symptoms. I m sure I m just acting like I was abused to get sympathy from others. I don t actually have any memories of sexual abuse, only strong reactions to triggers, and I could easily have worked myself up about that right? If there was something there, there would be at least some memory, wouldn t there? Intense explosive anger could easily be just a character flaw. The fact that I m unable to... Ever Wonder If You re Faking It? What/how Do You Decide?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/ever-wonder-if-youre-faking-it-what-how-do-you-decide.61553/

Dissociation : Accept Ptsd. Deal With The Pain

This is my third thread on this forum so far. I suffer from dissociative subtype of PTSD. I m sure you are all already aware of this. I ve recently had an epiphany, about my PTSD. I noticed I would never think about it when I am outside and in the world. Likewise, I never would label myself PTSD . I would have a problem with that, and as a result, I suffered through a lot of pain. I could feel it all over me, like a reexperiencing stabbing pain in my chest. I thought I was going crazy... Dissociation : Accept Ptsd. Deal With The Pain
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/dissociation-accept-ptsd-deal-with-the-pain.61552/

Sometimes The Heavens Do Provide

I got up this morning in a state of considerable anxiety and near panic about some medical and admin issues I m going to have to face. I could see most of my major triggers heading my way. I noticed the drains were gurgling as the dishwasher ran, then I found a wet area of carpet, then a puddle in the hall, and finally a flood coming out of the shower. I ve spent two hours mopping, tried to unblock the drain and finally realised that not only is the drain blocked, the shower bottle trap is... Sometimes The Heavens Do Provide
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/sometimes-the-heavens-do-provide.61551/

Music Dialog Using One Line From Any Song

A friend and I used to talk using only a lyric line from a song. Usually we were already talking and then the riff would break out. "Pressure pushing down on me"
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/music-dialog-using-one-line-from-any-song.58753/

I Am Really Nasty Off My Meds :/?

My psychiatrist won t Prescribe more meds until I make an appointment. Which is tomorrow but I ve been waiting all week. I take Zoloft. I m noticing especially in the last few hours I m having really obnoxious and petty thoughts. There s this person who I hate with all my being, on or off my medicine. She s complete trash (I m sorry, that s the nicest way to put it. I m holding back as much as I can.) she has harassed me on multiple occasions, followed me to work, tried to get me... I Am Really Nasty Off My Meds :/?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-am-really-nasty-off-my-meds.61550/

Six/two/7/for

I keep having fantasies about killing myself. I see myself with the knife I feel this force and I think I see someone on the other end I put the knife in their face I see trow up coming out of their face I feel better but then when the feeling goes away I realize that it s my other self I brutally stab them and I feel like shit when I m done but then I reason it away that they just started an argument and a fight for some stupid reason to set me up or make me look stupid.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/six-two-7-for.61546/

The Feels Are Not Real

Hello my name is Lita Now i have a problem dealing with my feelings and my ability to give and receive affection. ♥ To shorten my story on how i got PTSD has to do with bullying and afraid of human interaction. Growing up i was severely bullied thought elementary and got to the point of suicide in my Middle School years. Year after Year being beaten and yelled at, scolded for things such as smiling and giggling made me afraid of i guess the human race. Everyday my friends... The Feels Are Not Real
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/the-feels-are-not-real.61548/

What Gives

Desperately Need Perspective

So I have PTSD stemming from several sexual traumas starting in childhood. My parter was with me during my last two traumas - roofied on spring break my senior year and again a few years later when I was passed out drunk by a person in our social circle. Recently I remembered a new (old, but feels new to me) trauma about sexual assault when I was five. My partner knows I have been dealing with this and I am really struggling, particularly with dissociation. A couple nights ago I asked my... Desperately Need Perspective
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/desperately-need-perspective.61545/

Housing Help For Vet With Ptsd

Would appreciate advice for my boyfriend, USMC vet of Iraq and Afghanistan with PTSD. He’s been out for about 5 years, and we met 1.5 years ago. After he got out he went through the classic rigmarole – drinking, drugs, isolation, divorce, bad relationships, bad decisions. A few months before we met he decided to clean up his act and did. He’s now started college (and getting all As), is working, started therapy, talks about us getting married in the future (our relationship is amazing and... Housing Help For Vet With Ptsd
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/housing-help-for-vet-with-ptsd.61542/

What Do You Do While Waiting For People?

I have a person in my life who is chronically late. That s what I m doing right now, waiting for this person, and posting for something to do. For the second time today... sigh. Besides attempting to set boundaries around how long I will wait, I m looking for things to do while waiting that are good for filling up undefined amounts of time and are easily left at whatever point they ve gotten to when said person shows up. Some kind of game that doesn t take a lot of concentration, maybe?... What Do You Do While Waiting For People?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/what-do-you-do-while-waiting-for-people.61541/

Lets Create A Ptsd Diagnosis

This is a sufferers view for what the PTSD diagnosis should be. I would suggest it is done in such a way that it covers both trauma and complex trauma in a single diagnosis. See the following reply for further information -- this first post will contain the completed diagnostic solution. ---------------------- Start Diagnosis -------------------------------- A. An event in which one of the following were present: (1) Directly experiencing or witnessing actual or immediate threat of... Lets Create A Ptsd Diagnosis
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/lets-create-a-ptsd-diagnosis.60515/

Opinions And Feedback Needed - Grad Student Work On Pts Community

Hello members, I am working on an epistemological project and wanted to get the opinions of those living with PTS on a few (relatively) new forms of therapy that are showing results, but are not traditional psychotherapy. There have been a few studies published in various medical magazines that promote the benefit of breathing based yoga that has shown to have better results than traditional psychotherapy alone (this study included Vietnam Veterans as well as abuse victims). Study I m... Opinions And Feedback Needed - Grad Student Work On Pts Community
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/opinions-and-feedback-needed-grad-student-work-on-pts-community.61539/

Help Supporting Someone With Ptsd Please.

Hi everyone I m new to the site. My fiancée was recently diagnosed with ptsd which has been left untreated for a number of years even decades. To be honest I don t even know where the ptsd has stemmed from but I think it is something to do with being neglected as a child or domestic abuse. I have tried speaking to her as to what the cause is but she does not want to talk about it. My partner is never violent and she has recently started therapy and councilling. There are currently issues... Help Supporting Someone With Ptsd Please.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/help-supporting-someone-with-ptsd-please.54886/

Sexual Abuse/assult Ptsd And Effects During/following Intimate Medical.examinations/procedures

I ve had sexual assult and abuse during my life and have always found routine and emergency intimate examinations and precedures terribly traumatic. I get the flashbacks, usual symptoms etc. I m a nurse and after a recent stay in hospital for emergency surgery in an intimate place. Through my own feelings at this time I began to wonder about how we as nurses coils discretely identify the fear and ask what people need to make it less traumatic and suites to them as an individual. I guess I m... Sexual Abuse/assult Ptsd And Effects During/following Intimate Medical.examinations/procedures
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/sexual-abuse-assult-ptsd-and-effects-during-following-intimate-medical-examinations-procedures.61536/

Disfiguring Car Accident

I was hit by someone who was texting. My leg, my foot, my lung, my eyes and side were hurt badly. Still in PT. The lung capacity is still low. I can only blow a 250 in peak flow still. However, one of the injuries may be disfiguring as time passes. It makes me wonder why I survived. I have so much PTSD from it that I am not able to do much more than PT. Has anyone been disfigured? If so, how did you cope?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/disfiguring-car-accident.61540/