Dissociation In Therapy

I ve been in therapy a few years now and I keep standing in my way by dissociating in therapy. It s worse there than anywhere. It s as though my defenses go up as soon as I walk in the door. My T has worked with me with grounding, breathing and somatic work but I can t beat it. I numb out. I m mostly there but distanced just enough to not be present. I feel we won t get anywhere til I tackle this. We just started using a book regarding mindfulness and Im trying to be more aware. Ideas... Dissociation In Therapy
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