The Greatest Blessing.

Hello All, I am writing because I want the truth and to see if anyone has wanted to accomplish what I have accomplished. I think I may have high functioning autism. I also have PTSD, Anxiety, and panic attacks but haven t in a long while. I have taken up weight lifting for the last 8 months or so. I have not adopted a right eating regime but have a workout routine that is vigorous. This is my new years resolution. I want to try steroids but do not want roid rage. I have done research on... Steroids And Ptsd
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/the-greatest-blessing.68760/

Steroids And Ptsd

Hello All, I am writing because I want the truth and to see if anyone has wanted to accomplish what I have accomplished. I think I may have high functioning autism. I also have PTSD, Anxiety, and panic attacks but haven t in a long while. I have taken up weight lifting for the last 8 months or so. I have not adopted a right eating regime but have a workout routine that is vigorous. This is my new years resolution. I want to try steroids but do not want roid rage. I have done research on... Steroids And Ptsd
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/steroids-and-ptsd.68761/

Just Found Out The Details Of My Wife's Rape

I want to have a party here but do not know if there are any takers. This is the beginning of a brand new year. It is a birth of the new year, a perfectly clean slate. What are some of the things that best speak to you about a brand new year. I am not a fan of the holidays but to me this means a brand new start. I am withdrawing and off of my Xanax and have been having terrible withdrawals and it is felt physically in my body and strange that today is the first day I feel normal. So I... Happy New Year!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/just-found-out-the-details-of-my-wifes-rape.52945/

Images

I want to have a party here but do not know if there are any takers. This is the beginning of a brand new year. It is a birth of the new year, a perfectly clean slate. What are some of the things that best speak to you about a brand new year. I am not a fan of the holidays but to me this means a brand new start. I am withdrawing and off of my Xanax and have been having terrible withdrawals and it is felt physically in my body and strange that today is the first day I feel normal. So I... Happy New Year!
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/images.68759/

Please Do Not Tell Me Happy New Years

I have recently decided to try to set some healthy boundaries with my mother concerning the types of behavior and language I will tolerate. I have tried to explain these boundaries clearly and in a loving way to her. (my letter to her is here) She, as I expected, is not respecting these boundaries. She has been sending hurtful and ugly texts, saying awful things about me to my family, and this... Mother s Threatening Behavior
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/please-do-not-tell-me-happy-new-years.68756/

1st Day In Therapy Dr Says "you Can't Go Back To Your Job-not Safe

I have recently decided to try to set some healthy boundaries with my mother concerning the types of behavior and language I will tolerate. I have tried to explain these boundaries clearly and in a loving way to her. (my letter to her is here) She, as I expected, is not respecting these boundaries. She has been sending hurtful and ugly texts, saying awful things about me to my family, and this... Mother s Threatening Behavior
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/1st-day-in-therapy-dr-says-you-cant-go-back-to-your-job-not-safe.67482/

Happy New Year!

I have recently decided to try to set some healthy boundaries with my mother concerning the types of behavior and language I will tolerate. I have tried to explain these boundaries clearly and in a loving way to her. (my letter to her is here) She, as I expected, is not respecting these boundaries. She has been sending hurtful and ugly texts, saying awful things about me to my family, and this... Mother s Threatening Behavior
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/happy-new-year.68758/

What Symptoms Have Improved Since You Have Been Working On Your Ptsd?

I have recently decided to try to set some healthy boundaries with my mother concerning the types of behavior and language I will tolerate. I have tried to explain these boundaries clearly and in a loving way to her. (my letter to her is here) She, as I expected, is not respecting these boundaries. She has been sending hurtful and ugly texts, saying awful things about me to my family, and this... Mother s Threatening Behavior
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/what-symptoms-have-improved-since-you-have-been-working-on-your-ptsd.68757/

The Rapist Gets Released This Year

My wife has PTSD from being raped by a previous boyfriend. We have been married for 5 years. She recently admitted to me that she cheated on me 7 months ago. She had been out at a bachelorette party for a friend and had gotten really drunk. The groom-to-be offered to drive her home. While he was driving her, he told her she was really pretty and kissed her. She kissed him back. Then he pulled over to the side of the road and undid his pants. She started to give him a blow job, then... Cheating Caused By Ptsd?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/the-rapist-gets-released-this-year.68755/

What Did You Do For You Today???

My wife has PTSD from being raped by a previous boyfriend. We have been married for 5 years. She recently admitted to me that she cheated on me 7 months ago. She had been out at a bachelorette party for a friend and had gotten really drunk. The groom-to-be offered to drive her home. While he was driving her, he told her she was really pretty and kissed her. She kissed him back. Then he pulled over to the side of the road and undid his pants. She started to give him a blow job, then... Cheating Caused By Ptsd?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/what-did-you-do-for-you-today.15670/

Very Confused... First Time To Be Shut Out For This Long.

I am working on a college project and my chosen subject is PTSD in the workplace so I would like some information from you guys relating to how it affects you with regards to employers/potential employers and colleagues. what I would like to know is: do you disclose to a potential employer prior to employment? do you disclose once you have secured the job? your reasons either way thanks in advance Richie
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/very-confused-first-time-to-be-shut-out-for-this-long.68750/

2016 Kris Kringle Gifts Received

I am working on a college project and my chosen subject is PTSD in the workplace so I would like some information from you guys relating to how it affects you with regards to employers/potential employers and colleagues. what I would like to know is: do you disclose to a potential employer prior to employment? do you disclose once you have secured the job? your reasons either way thanks in advance Richie
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/2016-kris-kringle-gifts-received.67404/

Wow!!

I am working on a college project and my chosen subject is PTSD in the workplace so I would like some information from you guys relating to how it affects you with regards to employers/potential employers and colleagues. what I would like to know is: do you disclose to a potential employer prior to employment? do you disclose once you have secured the job? your reasons either way thanks in advance Richie
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/wow.68751/

Father Can't Be Trusted

I am working on a college project and my chosen subject is PTSD in the workplace so I would like some information from you guys relating to how it affects you with regards to employers/potential employers and colleagues. what I would like to know is: do you disclose to a potential employer prior to employment? do you disclose once you have secured the job? your reasons either way thanks in advance Richie
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/father-cant-be-trusted.68752/

Spinning Room During Dissociation

I am working on a college project and my chosen subject is PTSD in the workplace so I would like some information from you guys relating to how it affects you with regards to employers/potential employers and colleagues. what I would like to know is: do you disclose to a potential employer prior to employment? do you disclose once you have secured the job? your reasons either way thanks in advance Richie
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/spinning-room-during-dissociation.68753/

Mental Illness And Driving

I am working on a college project and my chosen subject is PTSD in the workplace so I would like some information from you guys relating to how it affects you with regards to employers/potential employers and colleagues. what I would like to know is: do you disclose to a potential employer prior to employment? do you disclose once you have secured the job? your reasons either way thanks in advance Richie
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/mental-illness-and-driving.68754/

Ptsd And Employment

I am working on a college project and my chosen subject is PTSD in the workplace so I would like some information from you guys relating to how it affects you with regards to employers/potential employers and colleagues. what I would like to know is: do you disclose to a potential employer prior to employment? do you disclose once you have secured the job? your reasons either way thanks in advance Richie
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/ptsd-and-employment.66387/

I Hope I Die

My health insurence has denied weekly vists to my therapist and says I "don t meet the minimium requirements. That my Anxiety has improved and I am doing better at work. Member may use peer and/or community supports". So work encompasses all of my issues? And community support? Peer support? Unless they are speaking of this site, I can t be in a group of people. I can t be around people at all. They are taking me down from weekly visits to every other week visits. United Behavoral... Denied Weekly Sessions
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-hope-i-die.61866/

Love And Ptsd When Is Enough Enough?

My health insurence has denied weekly vists to my therapist and says I "don t meet the minimium requirements. That my Anxiety has improved and I am doing better at work. Member may use peer and/or community supports". So work encompasses all of my issues? And community support? Peer support? Unless they are speaking of this site, I can t be in a group of people. I can t be around people at all. They are taking me down from weekly visits to every other week visits. United Behavoral... Denied Weekly Sessions
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/love-and-ptsd-when-is-enough-enough.68747/

Need Some Advice

My health insurence has denied weekly vists to my therapist and says I "don t meet the minimium requirements. That my Anxiety has improved and I am doing better at work. Member may use peer and/or community supports". So work encompasses all of my issues? And community support? Peer support? Unless they are speaking of this site, I can t be in a group of people. I can t be around people at all. They are taking me down from weekly visits to every other week visits. United Behavoral... Denied Weekly Sessions
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/need-some-advice.68748/

Did Trump Pick Us Because Of Trauma?

I met a guy online, we spoke on the phone and online for a month. He then visited me in my city and stayed for four days. another month later he applied for a job in my city, got the job and then he moved 150 miles to live in my city. He told me he loved me. Because I have been hurt before I was cautious because everything was happening fast. He wanted to spend time with me and was very keen. I told my friends and they said he is doing all the right things. His mother had died from cancer... He Made An Inappropriate Joke And I Ended Our Relationship?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/did-trump-pick-us-because-of-trauma.68744/

New Year And Celebration

I met a guy online, we spoke on the phone and online for a month. He then visited me in my city and stayed for four days. another month later he applied for a job in my city, got the job and then he moved 150 miles to live in my city. He told me he loved me. Because I have been hurt before I was cautious because everything was happening fast. He wanted to spend time with me and was very keen. I told my friends and they said he is doing all the right things. His mother had died from cancer... He Made An Inappropriate Joke And I Ended Our Relationship?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/new-year-and-celebration.68745/

Hi From Australia. Really Impressed...

I met a guy online, we spoke on the phone and online for a month. He then visited me in my city and stayed for four days. another month later he applied for a job in my city, got the job and then he moved 150 miles to live in my city. He told me he loved me. Because I have been hurt before I was cautious because everything was happening fast. He wanted to spend time with me and was very keen. I told my friends and they said he is doing all the right things. His mother had died from cancer... He Made An Inappropriate Joke And I Ended Our Relationship?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/hi-from-australia-really-impressed.68746/

Depressive Realism

Minor stability bug fixes are in progress, please report any issues via ticket with as much information as possible.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/depressive-realism.68742/

A Marriage In Crisis

Minor stability bug fixes are in progress, please report any issues via ticket with as much information as possible.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/a-marriage-in-crisis.68743/

Very Hurt, And Confused. Longest Time He Has Ever Shut Me Out.

My health insurence has denied weekly vists to my therapist and says I "don t meet the minimium requirements. That my Anxiety has improved and I am doing better at work. Member may use peer and/or community supports". So work encompasses all of my issues? And community support? Peer support? Unless they are speaking of this site, I can t be in a group of people. I can t be around people at all. They are taking me down from weekly visits to every other week visits. United Behavoral... Denied Weekly Sessions
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/very-hurt-and-confused-longest-time-he-has-ever-shut-me-out.68736/

Denied Weekly Sessions

My health insurence has denied weekly vists to my therapist and says I "don t meet the minimium requirements. That my Anxiety has improved and I am doing better at work. Member may use peer and/or community supports". So work encompasses all of my issues? And community support? Peer support? Unless they are speaking of this site, I can t be in a group of people. I can t be around people at all. They are taking me down from weekly visits to every other week visits. United Behavoral... Denied Weekly Sessions
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/denied-weekly-sessions.68740/

Almost 1 Year Clean (self Harm)

Is this ever an ok thing to do?? I m thinking not, and yet I really want to send the following to my vet: "Hope the new year brings you strength, courage, inner peace and the success and happiness you deserve. Your friend, always xxx" Is it ok to send him that? Even though he s asked for no contact? Even though he s said it s over? I ve been respecting his wishes so far (apart from letting him know my(our) dog had died, I figured that was permissible) It s been tough, but I ve been... Reaching Out Even When You ve Been Asked Not To?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/almost-1-year-clean-self-harm.68739/

Nye Rage...!

Some of you know that my now husband has a past porn issue and is going to a group for men with sex addiction issues. Apparently some of the wives of the men in the group keep getting diagnosed with PTSD based on finding out about their husbands betrayals be it porn or something else. When did this become a good thing to do?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/nye-rage.68725/

Better New Year !!!

Some of you know that my now husband has a past porn issue and is going to a group for men with sex addiction issues. Apparently some of the wives of the men in the group keep getting diagnosed with PTSD based on finding out about their husbands betrayals be it porn or something else. When did this become a good thing to do?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/better-new-year.68737/

Thoughts

Some of you know that my now husband has a past porn issue and is going to a group for men with sex addiction issues. Apparently some of the wives of the men in the group keep getting diagnosed with PTSD based on finding out about their husbands betrayals be it porn or something else. When did this become a good thing to do?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/thoughts.68738/

Why Does Csa Hurt?

This makes no sense, but I am completely triggered today like the whole day. Out of all things that I was worried during December, this was not one of them. And all celebrations I worried about went okay. But today, I woke completely...off. I don t even know what s wrong but I just feel triggered and anxious without being able to pinpoint why. There is no deadline that I m late on, no crisis. I wanted a relaxed NY so we are doing movie marathon so that s cool...The only thing annoying is all... New Year Eve Is Triggering??
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/why-does-csa-hurt.68731/

I Tried To Support My Sufferer

This makes no sense, but I am completely triggered today like the whole day. Out of all things that I was worried during December, this was not one of them. And all celebrations I worried about went okay. But today, I woke completely...off. I don t even know what s wrong but I just feel triggered and anxious without being able to pinpoint why. There is no deadline that I m late on, no crisis. I wanted a relaxed NY so we are doing movie marathon so that s cool...The only thing annoying is all... New Year Eve Is Triggering??
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-tried-to-support-my-sufferer.68732/

Rip, Dear Mr. Wong

This makes no sense, but I am completely triggered today like the whole day. Out of all things that I was worried during December, this was not one of them. And all celebrations I worried about went okay. But today, I woke completely...off. I don t even know what s wrong but I just feel triggered and anxious without being able to pinpoint why. There is no deadline that I m late on, no crisis. I wanted a relaxed NY so we are doing movie marathon so that s cool...The only thing annoying is all... New Year Eve Is Triggering??
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/rip-dear-mr-wong.68733/

He Made An Inappropriate Joke And I Ended Our Relationship?

This makes no sense, but I am completely triggered today like the whole day. Out of all things that I was worried during December, this was not one of them. And all celebrations I worried about went okay. But today, I woke completely...off. I don t even know what s wrong but I just feel triggered and anxious without being able to pinpoint why. There is no deadline that I m late on, no crisis. I wanted a relaxed NY so we are doing movie marathon so that s cool...The only thing annoying is all... New Year Eve Is Triggering??
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/he-made-an-inappropriate-joke-and-i-ended-our-relationship.68734/

Betrayed Wives Being Diagnosed With Ptsd

This makes no sense, but I am completely triggered today like the whole day. Out of all things that I was worried during December, this was not one of them. And all celebrations I worried about went okay. But today, I woke completely...off. I don t even know what s wrong but I just feel triggered and anxious without being able to pinpoint why. There is no deadline that I m late on, no crisis. I wanted a relaxed NY so we are doing movie marathon so that s cool...The only thing annoying is all... New Year Eve Is Triggering??
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/betrayed-wives-being-diagnosed-with-ptsd.68735/

New Year Eve Is Triggering??

This makes no sense, but I am completely triggered today like the whole day. Out of all things that I was worried during December, this was not one of them. And all celebrations I worried about went okay. But today, I woke completely...off. I don t even know what s wrong but I just feel triggered and anxious without being able to pinpoint why. There is no deadline that I m late on, no crisis. I wanted a relaxed NY so we are doing movie marathon so that s cool...The only thing annoying is all... New Year Eve Is Triggering??
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/new-year-eve-is-triggering.68730/

Afraid Of Becoming An Alcoholic Like My Dad?

As new year dawns i cant help feeling down about the prospect of yet another year of surviving. I feel like my past is something i am never going to be free of. I can do all the T in the world but i am going to keep having to deal with it, for example not being able to get pregnant for the last 2 years i know that is more than likely a result of what was done to me. I know i should be turning it around planning a life i can have but how do you ever move on when the stuff you try to move on... Can You Ever Move On?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/afraid-of-becoming-an-alcoholic-like-my-dad.68729/

Can You Ever Move On?

As new year dawns i cant help feeling down about the prospect of yet another year of surviving. I feel like my past is something i am never going to be free of. I can do all the T in the world but i am going to keep having to deal with it, for example not being able to get pregnant for the last 2 years i know that is more than likely a result of what was done to me. I know i should be turning it around planning a life i can have but how do you ever move on when the stuff you try to move on... Can You Ever Move On?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/can-you-ever-move-on.68728/

I Feel So Alone

Is this ever an ok thing to do?? I m thinking not, and yet I really want to send the following to my vet: "Hope the new year brings you strength, courage, inner peace and the success and happiness you deserve. Your friend, always xxx" Is it ok to send him that? Even though he s asked for no contact? Even though he s said it s over? I ve been respecting his wishes so far (apart from letting him know my(our) dog had died, I figured that was permissible) It s been tough, but I ve been... Reaching Out Even When You ve Been Asked Not To?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/i-feel-so-alone.67146/

How Has Sharing Past Abuse With Others Close To You Gone?

Is this ever an ok thing to do?? I m thinking not, and yet I really want to send the following to my vet: "Hope the new year brings you strength, courage, inner peace and the success and happiness you deserve. Your friend, always xxx" Is it ok to send him that? Even though he s asked for no contact? Even though he s said it s over? I ve been respecting his wishes so far (apart from letting him know my(our) dog had died, I figured that was permissible) It s been tough, but I ve been... Reaching Out Even When You ve Been Asked Not To?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/how-has-sharing-past-abuse-with-others-close-to-you-gone.68727/

Dr. Peter Levine's Theories

Is this ever an ok thing to do?? I m thinking not, and yet I really want to send the following to my vet: "Hope the new year brings you strength, courage, inner peace and the success and happiness you deserve. Your friend, always xxx" Is it ok to send him that? Even though he s asked for no contact? Even though he s said it s over? I ve been respecting his wishes so far (apart from letting him know my(our) dog had died, I figured that was permissible) It s been tough, but I ve been... Reaching Out Even When You ve Been Asked Not To?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/dr-peter-levines-theories.68726/

Nye Rage...! Dont Read If Anger Triggers You!

I ve been debating on whether or not it was appropriate to make this thread, but the more I think about it, the more I think it could be fun. My purpose: I wanted to create a space where we can share some of the songs we relate to in terms of PTSD/our experiences and struggles with circumstances/Depression/related symptoms, and, yes, even songs that have given us hope and strength! I am sort of thinking that this would be kind of a "this is the song I m thinking of now or today" sort of... Songs You Relate To
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/nye-rage-dont-read-if-anger-triggers-you.68725/

Reaching Out Even When You've Been Asked Not To?

I ve been debating on whether or not it was appropriate to make this thread, but the more I think about it, the more I think it could be fun. My purpose: I wanted to create a space where we can share some of the songs we relate to in terms of PTSD/our experiences and struggles with circumstances/Depression/related symptoms, and, yes, even songs that have given us hope and strength! I am sort of thinking that this would be kind of a "this is the song I m thinking of now or today" sort of... Songs You Relate To
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/reaching-out-even-when-youve-been-asked-not-to.68724/

Safe To Talk To T About Recent Failed Attempt?

I ve seen this on other forums and thought I d start one here, just 5 things that are on your mind today, can be totally random, and they don t have to be questions, just 5 things you re thinking today. For example: 1. The room is way too hot. 2. I m thirsty. 3. I miss having a pet. 4. Still don t understand how tv works. 5. I think I ll start a new thread.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/safe-to-talk-to-t-about-recent-failed-attempt.68723/

How Many Other 'hidden' Extreme Abusers...

Welcome to your new association thread. The original had become long enough that it was taking a few minutes to load. Carrying on... Sunshinekaz said: ↑ ActingClick to expand... Reacting
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/how-many-other-hidden-extreme-abusers.68722/

What Made You Angry Today?

I didn t see a thread about this for 2017 and thought it would be cool to have a thread about our 2017 New Year s Resolution. I don t have one yet but I would like my dog to be fully trained as my Service dog in 2017. Maybe taking a full year to do. Another would be to be able to go to some places by myself (or as a team with my dog) like shopping or a cafe or a park. Also, maybe resolve my hatred for religon (though not sure if that will be able to be done in a year). I just want to be... What Is Your New Year s Resolution For 2017?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/what-made-you-angry-today.17981/

Hello From New York City

I didn t see a thread about this for 2017 and thought it would be cool to have a thread about our 2017 New Year s Resolution. I don t have one yet but I would like my dog to be fully trained as my Service dog in 2017. Maybe taking a full year to do. Another would be to be able to go to some places by myself (or as a team with my dog) like shopping or a cafe or a park. Also, maybe resolve my hatred for religon (though not sure if that will be able to be done in a year). I just want to be... What Is Your New Year s Resolution For 2017?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/hello-from-new-york-city.68720/

Terrible Exchange With Acquaintance, Reeling

Has anyone read The Stand by Stephen King? It s the book club s choice for January. I downloaded the audio but it s 44 hours long and only ten days to the discussion. Not sure how triggering the book will be. The miniseries was pretty boring.
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/terrible-exchange-with-acquaintance-reeling.68719/

Anyone Else Hate Their Birthday?

So I m turning 18 tomorrow. I always feel conflicted on my birthday. I feel so uncomfortable when people congratulate me or make a fuss about it. Not sure why. Anybody else the same?
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/anyone-else-hate-their-birthday.68718/