The Series Of Events That Lead To My Ptsd And How Years Later I Still Haven’t Worked Through It

I hate feeling so lonely. My paranoia makes me think I can t trust anyone when maybe I should but I just can t and when I feel like I can t trust anyone then I don t know who I can trust which in turn makes me feel like shit and I m lonely. It feels like no one would care if I didn t exist or that maybe if I were to disappear in some way(not necessarily die but that has been on my mind for some time now..) that I d cause less of a bother in the long run versus sticking around and constantly... Loneliness And Paranoia Go Hand In Hand
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