My Reoccurring Nightmares Are Getting Worse

today has not been a good day, i have had a whole day of flashbacks and all the thoughts and feelings i dont want to have. I set myself a challenge this week that i wouldnt drink, which i have stuck to this is my second day, but without it all i can think about is cutting. I have done some exercise but the feeling is still there so im posting here next in the hope that getting it out will help, my next option is a shower which im going to do now then i am all out of distractions and alone... Trying Not To Punish Myself
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