Am I Making It Up Or Is It Real :/ I Think I May Have Been Molested But Cant Remember

I mean not in a bad or abusive way just feel his pressence as if he is near you? this person is dead for 4.5 years and i never sensed his pressence untill i started to work on the Abuse in therapy. usually after this feeling there are flashbacks so i get ready. to be honest (and i am going to sound stupid i know) sometimes i think that maybe his soul is trying to contact me and tell me that it is not him although i see him in flashback. and sometimes i am afraid that maybe he is angry with... Do You Feel The Presence Of The Abuser Sometimes?
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