I Can't Cry. And I Really Want To

I have a chalange with crying. I really want to cry my heart out. Even to scream. The last 2 month since the abuse came out were so difficult. I hardly worked or slept. I feel the tears but I can t take them out. I tried to scream in my car but felt stupid. I cried when my father died or my spiritual teacher died. I cry if I am very frustrated or angry about an issue without good solution. I think that it s because of self control. I have to be in control about everything in my life... I Can t Cry. And I Really Want To
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