Feeling Stuck And Don't Know How To Get Out Of My Thoughts

I have been feeling so down and stuck these last few months as it gets closer to my son s death anniversary. (08/25/2006) People have been so rude telling me I NEED to move on. I thought I was doing ok until this year. It s just a HUGE reminder that we would have had a 9 year old. I feel like a failure as a wife because I can t give my husband kids. This sucks
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