What Am I Doing Wrong? I Keep Ending Up In The Same Place Mentally

I am 2 1/2 years out from the major single traumatic incident of my life, which capped off a childhood of torture by my father and an adulthood of more downs than ups marked by tremendous self-doubt, very poor self-image, and a real, underlying fear or anxiety of "why bother, I have no future and am not worthy of one." So, 2 1/2 years ago, I found myself very close to kiling myself, and then somehow I managed not to and found the will to fight ... and I ve had several periods since where... What Am I Doing Wrong? I Keep Ending Up In The Same Place Mentally
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