Suicidal With A Child

Is there anyone else out there who has suicidal thoughts and is also a parent? I would never kill myself, because my son needs me. I m a single mom, but I still feel suicidal sometimes. I feel so guilty for feeling that way. If my son wasn t alive, I wouldn t be alive. Then there is also the question, what does my PTSD and depression do to my poor child. I try to keep an upbeat attitude around him, so that he doesn t see too much of it, but I can t hide everything. Anyway, just... Suicidal With A Child
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