Overreacting

Currently feel like I m two steps from falling apart. Haunted by old voices telling me I never should have been born. That there is something badly wrong with me, and I never should have made it this far. That if this were any other time I would already be dead, as it is survival of the fittest. Can see that I m overreacting and and not sure how to to stop. I already have Rheumatoid Arthritis, was diagnosed with the childhood variety at age 9, but this test is alarming me. I eat fish, am... Overreacting
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