Molested/victim Of Infidelity/abused

I have just discovered I have PTSD...self-diagnosis, but I have all of the symptoms. I just cannot afford therapy, I am trying to conquer this on my own and without medication. I am being positive that I can do it, but at times I literally feel like a prisoner to my own mind. At times I do well with controlling it, but most of the time I cannot control it. I hate this! I hate the constant anxiety, triggers, flashbacks, and feeling so helpless and hopeless. It is affecting my relationships... Molested/victim Of Infidelity/abused
https://www.myptsd.com/c/threads/molested-victim-of-infidelity-abused.52671/