Back To Making Decisions

I feel like I ve fallen back in any progress that I have been making. I am trying once again to figure out if I should continue to try to keep working or to take time off. My mother-in-law s death has brought my number one fear (death) back to being in all of my thoughts. My fear of death only partially has to do with the great wonderings of whether there is any kind of after life or not. Mostly it has to do with wasting away the time I do have here among the living. I feel like I miss... Back To Making Decisions
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