Can't Tell What's Worse - The Curse Or The Cure?

I see many posts regarding the ongoing issue with VA meds. We experiment with all sorts of combinations in search of the "Dream Cocktail" to give us a level of comfortability. I find myself gifted that over many years (not even knowing I had PTSD) of dealing with the *Beast* I unconsciously developed coping skills. Many years in AA and group therapy I avoided the search for the *Dream Cocktail* All my physical medical crap I have on my plate today is a directly related to AO. Everytime I turn... Can t Tell What s Worse - The Curse Or The Cure?
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